I do stupid shit daily...

[didntgomyway]

So I've been up to no good lately.
I cut myself again, and beat my hand/wrist with a crowbar.
My therapist thinks I broke it even though it doesn't hurt.
she said I have a high threshold for pain.
I don't know.
My dad doesn't know about it, he's convinced I have a skin disease
since it kind of spread and got worse.
yesterday it hurt a little but I can still type and move it without it hurting
if I push on it it hurts, I go to the dr's tomorrow.
I went monday and she said it was sprained.
But I hit it a lot more since then.
My therapist said this is an emergency case.
I don't know. I know I'm fucked up.
Plus I've been hallucinating and suicidal.
Oh the joys of depression.