Reality Check
1. I am a total flake and forgetful as shit. This makes me feel like a bad friend all the time.
2. I am spoiled. If things don't go my way all the time, I get geniunely upset.
3. I have absolutely no drive. This leaves me feeling virtually talentless and directionless because I never take the time and effort to accomplish things or get good at anything.
4. I am not happy with my body but for the latter reason I never do anything about it.
5. I don't know how to talk to people about serious problems. I would usually rather just ignore something then have to deal with a difficult conversation.
6. I am too easily defeated. I hate conflict and confrontation so I'm usually the first to back down.
7. When I'm tired, hungry, sad, angry, frustrated, etc. I snap on people and they usually don't deserve it. I don't know any other way to express emotions.
8. I am needy. I often feel ignored or unappreciated but for above reasons I'll never tell you that.
9. I am so vain and so materialistic that it even pisses me off, so I can't imagine what a lot of other people think of me.
10. I have no sense of reality a lot of the time. I'm much happier living in a fantasy.
But all of this is okay. Because:
1. I may be a flake but I certainly am not stupid. I graduated with first class honors and math honors. Despite no longer being in school, I still love to continue reading and learning about a lot of different things to enrich my mind. I can hold an intelligent conversation with almost anyone of any age.
2. I may be spoiled but I am by no means ungrateful. I am so thankful every day of my life for the priveledges I have had and for the people who have brought them to me. I realize how fortunate I am.
3. I like to attribute my lack of drive to having a way too large of a list of dreams. I'm a dreamer. And before I chase one I need to get them all in order and assess which ones are the most important to me. When you love as much as I do, there's really not much time for them all.
4. I am not happy with my body but this does not mean that I am not happy with my appearance. I honestly think that I'm a pretty cute girl. I have great hair (most of the time) and I love taking time to do my makeup and put a cute outfit together. Being unhappy about one thing in my appearance does not get my confidence down.
5. I can't have serious and difficult conversations. This keeps me only spending my time with people that I won't ever have to. I don't settle for less. My friends never treat me in a way that I have to confront them on anything and if they do, it's toodles time.
6. I may be easily defeated but all that means is I'm not as hardheaded as most people I know. I get along with almost everyone. I find no reason to fight over petty differences. Agree to disagree is alright with me. Unless you're downright ignorant, I'll accept you for whatever you are.
7. I snap when I'm under stress for any reason. This isn't a good thing but at least I will be the first to admit that I'm being an asshole and need to take 5. I know when I'm being unreasonable.
8. I am needy but I won't ever ask for attention. I don't seek it in petty ways. I just accept the fact that most people's lives go on without me most of the time. I know that there are a few people in this world who do need me and they are all that really matters.
9. I am vain and materialistic but as Ke$ha says, WE R WHO WE R. I am 100% myself always and looking and feeling good is important to me. If you don't like my style, how long I take to get ready in the morning, how much I appreciate quality in a product, what I'd do for a buck (hah girl's gotta live), I could give zero fucks. I don't care what other people think of me. I am me and I can't be anyone else.
10. And lastly, FUCK REALITY. I am okay in my fantasy land. Fake it 'til you make it. Every day I feel like a superstar. Do you?
What was the point of this? To prove to myself that for every fault, every single thing that I don't like about myself, there is something that I love about myself. There is a reason why someone else loves you. All your faults are just half of who you are. The bad half that every single person on the face of this earth has.
But these faults all combined together with all the good things that offset them come together to form YOU. Beautiful and perfect you.
Always remember the things that you love about yourself. If you forget about them you become all the things you hate most about yourself. Always remember your faults. They humble you. They are goals, improvements to make, a drive to go on, and most importantly, they are what make you human.
Everyone on my friends list should try making a list like this for themselves when they are feeling down. You don't have to post it publicly. Just keep it around for when you're feeling bad about yourself.