forgive me please
Im sorry. I cant tell you how I feel. I really hate when I tell you how I feel. Sometimes it seems to me like you just dismiss every feeling I grow from within me. You yourself planted those seeds, Twas not me. If only I could show you how I feel really tell you how my heart breaks with every I love you. I love you and I know you love me back, but your I love yous have changed like you say it because you feel like you have to. They sound so cold and so filled with death and lack of faith and happiness.
I feel like Im the worst thing thats ever happened to you. I wish I could make you happy but only one option is reaching my head but I fight it so strongly hoping, PRAYING it doesn't come to that.
You break my heart and you continue to hammer it. I know you care for me, but when you're upset you only see your pain and your hate and allow it to build up and to continue to do so. Im so sorry I cause you all that pain. Im so sorry I'm the biggest headache for you. I know I'm not easy at all and I am so sorry. I wish I could tell you that when you stare at me like that, with so much hate it reminds me of one thing; Who I use to be. I use to give that same look to myself in the mirror.
The look; Im not worthy of anything or anyone. I deserve everything thats bad and horrid and horrible in my life. I hate myself.
Well Im beginning to give myself that look. I DO hate myself. Im the one reason you're mad and upset and hurt and filled with so much pain. Im the worst girlfriend, person ever in the world. You dont deserve the horrid pain I cause you. You will most likely never read this and Im glad. Because I know you'll be hurt and get mad at me and turn this whole thing around at me, but I've already done it. I am not the child God will choose and take me into his heaven. For what I've done to you there's no forgiveness.
Because of me you'll never be the same with me. You wont kiss or look or smile or hug or touch me the same. Im so sorry for that.
Another thing. I promise you Im not jealous at all. Im not that kind of person. Yes I do like to hold on to what is mine dearly but I know if it's not mine it's not. I should have nothing at all though. I hurt you so badly, and Im so sorry that because of me you had to develop a shield so you wont care about what I have to say so it doesnt affect you.
You kissed me last night and hug me last night after we talked like the first time you kissed me and I thought all I needed was just one kiss like that and one hug like that to know that Yvon is still within you but I want him forever. I want him now, tomorrow, and the days to come after that. But you left so quickly when you came back inside.
I miss my beautiful Yvon. I dream about you EVERYNIGHT and I miss you sooo much. But youre long gone faraway, never to return beneath his feet. :: cries:: I just wish I wouldnt have done to you what I did. Im soo sorry I make you hate me sooo much that you push me away but please stay with me. Please done leave me. Please stay here once more just once more I beg.
You'll never be Yvon anymore and thats all my fault.
Im sorry for everything That I've done to you.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart.
♥Didi
I feel like Im the worst thing thats ever happened to you. I wish I could make you happy but only one option is reaching my head but I fight it so strongly hoping, PRAYING it doesn't come to that.
You break my heart and you continue to hammer it. I know you care for me, but when you're upset you only see your pain and your hate and allow it to build up and to continue to do so. Im so sorry I cause you all that pain. Im so sorry I'm the biggest headache for you. I know I'm not easy at all and I am so sorry. I wish I could tell you that when you stare at me like that, with so much hate it reminds me of one thing; Who I use to be. I use to give that same look to myself in the mirror.
The look; Im not worthy of anything or anyone. I deserve everything thats bad and horrid and horrible in my life. I hate myself.
Well Im beginning to give myself that look. I DO hate myself. Im the one reason you're mad and upset and hurt and filled with so much pain. Im the worst girlfriend, person ever in the world. You dont deserve the horrid pain I cause you. You will most likely never read this and Im glad. Because I know you'll be hurt and get mad at me and turn this whole thing around at me, but I've already done it. I am not the child God will choose and take me into his heaven. For what I've done to you there's no forgiveness.
Because of me you'll never be the same with me. You wont kiss or look or smile or hug or touch me the same. Im so sorry for that.
Another thing. I promise you Im not jealous at all. Im not that kind of person. Yes I do like to hold on to what is mine dearly but I know if it's not mine it's not. I should have nothing at all though. I hurt you so badly, and Im so sorry that because of me you had to develop a shield so you wont care about what I have to say so it doesnt affect you.
You kissed me last night and hug me last night after we talked like the first time you kissed me and I thought all I needed was just one kiss like that and one hug like that to know that Yvon is still within you but I want him forever. I want him now, tomorrow, and the days to come after that. But you left so quickly when you came back inside.
I miss my beautiful Yvon. I dream about you EVERYNIGHT and I miss you sooo much. But youre long gone faraway, never to return beneath his feet. :: cries:: I just wish I wouldnt have done to you what I did. Im soo sorry I make you hate me sooo much that you push me away but please stay with me. Please done leave me. Please stay here once more just once more I beg.
You'll never be Yvon anymore and thats all my fault.
Im sorry for everything That I've done to you.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart.
♥Didi