Another Overdue Entry...
Life has been Crazy once again...
I No longer work at Coyote Ugly & have been (mostly) Less Stressed & deffinetly having MORE Fun.
I have been Drinking More (which is Not so Good)...It's NOT been Obsessive amounts, just like Too Many Nights per week. I should Really try to cut back on that.
I had recently (about a Month ago) Grounded myself from Dating...& was doing Well, until *deep breath*...I have Momemtarily gotten involved w/ yet Another Co-Worker. *sigh* THIS has Got to STOP!! I Know Better, I Do! *disappointed* :(
Still LOVE " Bo " though...& Probably always will, regardless of IF Anything (Beyond Friends) works out w/ us or Not. *shrugs* We're Still Good w/ where we're at, I think...though I wish it were More.
Being SINGLE I Usually say is EASIER, but then Somebody Walks into your Life & throws off Your "You" Schedule. In this case, Work...
It sucks that when 1 thing goes Right for me, most other stuff Falls apart.
I would like to say that I want to be Somebody's Girlfriend...but I'm Tired of Waiting for "Mr. Right" & I'm Tired of the Same Ol' Stupid Drama & BS that comes along w/ "Dating". I don't want to be Mis-Treated, I don't want to be Used, I don't want to be Tossed aside when I feel things are going well, & I don't want it to All blow up in my face, because I picked the WRONG Person again. As well as, I Certainly Don't want to direct these situations onto anybody that I'd date either.
I am Who I am, & It'd be Nice if I could just Find & put up w/ the person that sees that in me. That We could just Feel the same, Not Overly one way or another...It's All just Too Much Work.
I'm Not sure that I ever want to get Married anymore. I know that I cannot support Kids. I can't even support Myself, because just when Finances are going well...Something Breaks or Somebody gets into a Situation that I feel the need to bail them out of. I am NEGATIVE 100's of Dollars because of "Being Nice".
You'd think that Eventually I'd Learn...
This post is, I'm Sure...kinda Random & Maybe all over the place. My Thoughts are Scattered to the point of Not being able to Focus on More than one thing at a time...& right now, I'm trying to Straighten out at least 3 different Situations.
When I get Overly Frazzled, I Lose Concentration on just about Anything & Forget how to do simple tasks (ie: counting money) or get mis-directed (mis-guided or just Lost).
It's Tough to Talk to 1 particular person near me, so instead I tend to spew my thoughts & jibberish to anybody & just about everybody (it's Not healthy), but My Best Friends live in Other States or have Kids, or Work as much as I do...We have different Schedules.
I can Hardly / Barely just Call up Somebody & Say, "Hey! I Need You to tell me what to do about...?!" Then again, when they say that to me...I Never seem to have an Answer & it makes me Feel lousy.
I'm Flirty
I'm Lonely
I make Friends TOO Easily
I am TOO Trusting
I Allow others to get Attached, Hell...I PUSH them to, but then I FREAK out & Refuse to Agree w/ the Situation.
I have Issues
I build Walls around Myself, that I'm Constantly peeking over...but Never Walking around.
Ok, Alright...I'm Done!
I Don't know where this Started & I'm Sure it's Not Finished...it just Rambles on & on (like me).
T.T.F.N.
~Didi~
I No longer work at Coyote Ugly & have been (mostly) Less Stressed & deffinetly having MORE Fun.
I have been Drinking More (which is Not so Good)...It's NOT been Obsessive amounts, just like Too Many Nights per week. I should Really try to cut back on that.
I had recently (about a Month ago) Grounded myself from Dating...& was doing Well, until *deep breath*...I have Momemtarily gotten involved w/ yet Another Co-Worker. *sigh* THIS has Got to STOP!! I Know Better, I Do! *disappointed* :(
Still LOVE " Bo " though...& Probably always will, regardless of IF Anything (Beyond Friends) works out w/ us or Not. *shrugs* We're Still Good w/ where we're at, I think...though I wish it were More.
Being SINGLE I Usually say is EASIER, but then Somebody Walks into your Life & throws off Your "You" Schedule. In this case, Work...
It sucks that when 1 thing goes Right for me, most other stuff Falls apart.
I would like to say that I want to be Somebody's Girlfriend...but I'm Tired of Waiting for "Mr. Right" & I'm Tired of the Same Ol' Stupid Drama & BS that comes along w/ "Dating". I don't want to be Mis-Treated, I don't want to be Used, I don't want to be Tossed aside when I feel things are going well, & I don't want it to All blow up in my face, because I picked the WRONG Person again. As well as, I Certainly Don't want to direct these situations onto anybody that I'd date either.
I am Who I am, & It'd be Nice if I could just Find & put up w/ the person that sees that in me. That We could just Feel the same, Not Overly one way or another...It's All just Too Much Work.
I'm Not sure that I ever want to get Married anymore. I know that I cannot support Kids. I can't even support Myself, because just when Finances are going well...Something Breaks or Somebody gets into a Situation that I feel the need to bail them out of. I am NEGATIVE 100's of Dollars because of "Being Nice".
You'd think that Eventually I'd Learn...
This post is, I'm Sure...kinda Random & Maybe all over the place. My Thoughts are Scattered to the point of Not being able to Focus on More than one thing at a time...& right now, I'm trying to Straighten out at least 3 different Situations.
When I get Overly Frazzled, I Lose Concentration on just about Anything & Forget how to do simple tasks (ie: counting money) or get mis-directed (mis-guided or just Lost).
It's Tough to Talk to 1 particular person near me, so instead I tend to spew my thoughts & jibberish to anybody & just about everybody (it's Not healthy), but My Best Friends live in Other States or have Kids, or Work as much as I do...We have different Schedules.
I can Hardly / Barely just Call up Somebody & Say, "Hey! I Need You to tell me what to do about...?!" Then again, when they say that to me...I Never seem to have an Answer & it makes me Feel lousy.
I'm Flirty
I'm Lonely
I make Friends TOO Easily
I am TOO Trusting
I Allow others to get Attached, Hell...I PUSH them to, but then I FREAK out & Refuse to Agree w/ the Situation.
I have Issues
I build Walls around Myself, that I'm Constantly peeking over...but Never Walking around.
Ok, Alright...I'm Done!
I Don't know where this Started & I'm Sure it's Not Finished...it just Rambles on & on (like me).
T.T.F.N.
~Didi~