Day 10! (I know I was OFF the Whole time)...but here it is, More than 1!
Day 01: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now:
Day 02: Nine things about yourself.
Day 03: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day 06: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day 07: Four turn offs.
Day 08: Three turn ons.
Day 09: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
* CONFESSION:
I Constantly Feel like a Failure...I am a College Drop Out & when people Suggest that I go back to School, it just Reminds me & I Feel Bad all over again.
I cannot seem to hold a Decent Relationship w/ Anybody past a few months. Guys, Gals, Friends, Lovers...Sure, we may be FRIENDS for a long time, but it Usually means that we Never See each other & Rarely Talk. If we are Talking / Dating a lot, then it'll last a few months, before that person fades out of My Life. Part of me Feels as though, Maybe I'm NOT meant to be w/ just 1 person, like Maybe I Don't really have a Soul Mate...that I'll NEVER Find "The One".
I Bounce from Job to Job, & Maybe NOT Quickly...but by holding Multiple Jobs it makes me Feel like LESS of a Failure, when in Reality I Sense that I am...because I don't have a Career, NOR will I for a LONG time (Especially w/o. a Degree).
I Don't Feel as though I'm headed on a Path of Success & instead I'm going the Opposite way in Life than Most everybody else.
I Truly Suck as a Human Being, but Try to tell Myself differently & Try to Believe & Dwell on other people's Comments when they Say I'm Great or doing Well. It means a lot, because I Don't Really FEEL it to be Honest. To me, it's All a Facade to NOT Feel like a Puddle of Crap.
NOW, After all that. I would like to say that, I am an AWESOME Girl when it comes to making Friends & Bonding w/ Total Strangers. That IS a SKILL that I have!
Oh & P.S.
I have a Crush on the Hotel Owner's Son, whom lives at the Hotel...
He's NOT even Hot, just Well...Super Nice & Attractive because of that. :)
...but:
I'd REALLY Like to Pursue a "Relationship" w/ Chris Danielson, Except that I'm NERVOUS & SCARED Of F*ckin' up the Friendship (as I've done in the Past w/ others)...
He's like the 1st Guy EVER To make an Effort to Visit me, & NOT make me ALWAYS Travel to HIS place. It's Refreshing & COMFORTABLE when I'm w/ him. We have Nice & Enjoyable times (even when he's Nursing me out of a Drunken state, which I've Done TOO Many times w/ him). He has an Incredible Smile, makes me Laugh, & Shows that he Really Cares. He gave me a Christmas Gift (Haven't gotten one of those from a Guy in FOREVER, IF Ever?)...He resides at the Air Force Academy & I thought that this Might be an Issue, but Maybe a Little Distance would be Good. He makes an Effort to take time & Drive up to Denver (JUST to See ME). He's Younger, but Mature, & UN-Tainted. I am Tainted...He Probably Deserves Somebody BETTER than Me.
I'm Not sure if I'm Good Enough for Anybody...*shrugs*
Day 02: Nine things about yourself.
Day 03: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day 06: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day 07: Four turn offs.
Day 08: Three turn ons.
Day 09: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day 10: One confession.
* CONFESSION:
I Constantly Feel like a Failure...I am a College Drop Out & when people Suggest that I go back to School, it just Reminds me & I Feel Bad all over again.
I cannot seem to hold a Decent Relationship w/ Anybody past a few months. Guys, Gals, Friends, Lovers...Sure, we may be FRIENDS for a long time, but it Usually means that we Never See each other & Rarely Talk. If we are Talking / Dating a lot, then it'll last a few months, before that person fades out of My Life. Part of me Feels as though, Maybe I'm NOT meant to be w/ just 1 person, like Maybe I Don't really have a Soul Mate...that I'll NEVER Find "The One".
I Bounce from Job to Job, & Maybe NOT Quickly...but by holding Multiple Jobs it makes me Feel like LESS of a Failure, when in Reality I Sense that I am...because I don't have a Career, NOR will I for a LONG time (Especially w/o. a Degree).
I Don't Feel as though I'm headed on a Path of Success & instead I'm going the Opposite way in Life than Most everybody else.
I Truly Suck as a Human Being, but Try to tell Myself differently & Try to Believe & Dwell on other people's Comments when they Say I'm Great or doing Well. It means a lot, because I Don't Really FEEL it to be Honest. To me, it's All a Facade to NOT Feel like a Puddle of Crap.
NOW, After all that. I would like to say that, I am an AWESOME Girl when it comes to making Friends & Bonding w/ Total Strangers. That IS a SKILL that I have!
Oh & P.S.
I have a Crush on the Hotel Owner's Son, whom lives at the Hotel...
He's NOT even Hot, just Well...Super Nice & Attractive because of that. :)
...but:
I'd REALLY Like to Pursue a "Relationship" w/ Chris Danielson, Except that I'm NERVOUS & SCARED Of F*ckin' up the Friendship (as I've done in the Past w/ others)...
He's like the 1st Guy EVER To make an Effort to Visit me, & NOT make me ALWAYS Travel to HIS place. It's Refreshing & COMFORTABLE when I'm w/ him. We have Nice & Enjoyable times (even when he's Nursing me out of a Drunken state, which I've Done TOO Many times w/ him). He has an Incredible Smile, makes me Laugh, & Shows that he Really Cares. He gave me a Christmas Gift (Haven't gotten one of those from a Guy in FOREVER, IF Ever?)...He resides at the Air Force Academy & I thought that this Might be an Issue, but Maybe a Little Distance would be Good. He makes an Effort to take time & Drive up to Denver (JUST to See ME). He's Younger, but Mature, & UN-Tainted. I am Tainted...He Probably Deserves Somebody BETTER than Me.
I'm Not sure if I'm Good Enough for Anybody...*shrugs*