I'm pissed and I need to rant
First, I haven't written in this for a long time because life has been busy as fuck and there isn't a damned thing I can do about it. We moved from AZ to MO where I got a job teaching Jr. High because I 'needed a change.' The first few weeks were great, but when the true colors started coming through and I found out just how shitty the kids I ended up with can be, I began to hate my job. When admins came to me and told me I needed to work on my classroom management because I didn't have the hold on them the teachers of the 'high' kids did, I hated my job even more. Now I have a house payment (we bought a house because Autumn was tired of paying rent and not 'working towards anything'), Autumn's pregnant, I still have no car, we just bought a new mattress because the other was too soft, we had to buy a brand new washer/dryer because the douchebag who was supposed to sell us his old units backed out like the fucktard he is, I have made NO friends here, the state of the economy has legitimately fucked me because I pay more into insurance than it pays out, and so on and so on. To sum it up, I'm scared as fuck of being a dad, I'm broke as fuck because of student loans and the normal needs of life, I'm depressed as fuck because I have no friends here, and I'm mad as fuck for taking a job that I was basically set up to fail at. I'm probably going to have to get a part-time job on the weekends to get some extra cash, which will basically give me no time to spend at home with my wife and dog. I just bought this great house at a wonderful price and now the only time I really get to spend in it is when I sleep. We don't even have any breakfast food in the house because we can't afford to go food shopping until I get paid. I'm tired, I'm frustrated, and I want to sleep for a week or more.