You really hurt my feelings today.
I’ve done nothing but tow the line for this family since the mid 90’s. I’ve been the one that’s kept us together and pushed for us to continue family traditions and see each other not just on the holidays but through out the years. I opened my door to my siblings and supported them in one for or another throughout. I’ve feed them, housed them. Found jobs for them and made sure that they never had a need. To insinuate that I mistreat anyone in my family struck me so deep. I held back tears through supper but couldn’t go any further so I got up put away my dishes and walked back to my room. As soon as I left the light of the kitchen and entered the darkness of the hall I couldn’t hold back anymore. I didn’t bother turning on the light as I couldn’t see through my tears anyway. I closed the door softly behind me when I got to my room and just sat in silence. Heart broken and tears flowing I honestly didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to continue the conversation and say something that may hurt you like you hurt me. So now I sit here. Listening to music in the dark. Allowing the lyrics and instruments to take me away to someplace else in my mind that while still hurts just doesn’t come from a place like this.