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I honestly think I'm going through a real nervous breakdown.......
Does anyone know what that actually feels like?
Here, just real quick (and yes, it always could be worse, but I need to vent)
-After 2 weeks of the most amazing school experience in Boston, my loan gets denied so I lug all my photography equipment BACK and am forced to withdraw.
-The very same night I completely ended my half-assed realtionship with the only parent I have ever met and will probably never talk to her again in my life. (And I'm not over-exagerrating, my mother and I are all done)
-My Grandmother who, in only the last year have I rebuilt my realtionship with, was admitted to the hospital yesterday and is doing quite shitty. I went there by myself tonite and held her hand for an hour. I don't think she knew I was there.
No, I'm not throwing myself a pity party, I just had to type this shit out so I can try and get to sleep, it probably wont help..... but I feel like a weak little girl, when only 2 weeks ago I didn't think my life could be better.
Does anyone know what that actually feels like?
Here, just real quick (and yes, it always could be worse, but I need to vent)
-After 2 weeks of the most amazing school experience in Boston, my loan gets denied so I lug all my photography equipment BACK and am forced to withdraw.
-The very same night I completely ended my half-assed realtionship with the only parent I have ever met and will probably never talk to her again in my life. (And I'm not over-exagerrating, my mother and I are all done)
-My Grandmother who, in only the last year have I rebuilt my realtionship with, was admitted to the hospital yesterday and is doing quite shitty. I went there by myself tonite and held her hand for an hour. I don't think she knew I was there.
No, I'm not throwing myself a pity party, I just had to type this shit out so I can try and get to sleep, it probably wont help..... but I feel like a weak little girl, when only 2 weeks ago I didn't think my life could be better.