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I'm just so damn... tired.
And not tired in the "I need sleep way"
I'm tired of everyone around me coming out, then starting t right away. I've been out for a year. I've been diagnosed for a year. Fuck I hate this.
And I'm tired of more than that, but I'm also tired about talking about all of it...
So now I'll go take a shower, and try and make myself happy by jerking off, and then cry myself to sleep. And tomorrow I'll get up and go to two diffrent doctors. One my regualr doctor who will call me Amanda, and one my therapist... and then my mother and I will fight... and as the holidays get closer the fights around the house will get worse... fuck... im tired.
And not tired in the "I need sleep way"
I'm tired of everyone around me coming out, then starting t right away. I've been out for a year. I've been diagnosed for a year. Fuck I hate this.
And I'm tired of more than that, but I'm also tired about talking about all of it...
So now I'll go take a shower, and try and make myself happy by jerking off, and then cry myself to sleep. And tomorrow I'll get up and go to two diffrent doctors. One my regualr doctor who will call me Amanda, and one my therapist... and then my mother and I will fight... and as the holidays get closer the fights around the house will get worse... fuck... im tired.