Making the effort
...to be a better LJ person by posting in here as well as Xanga.
As much as I hate to miss the training that goodness knows I need, I am going to sleep through ballet tomorrow because I need the rest. Even though I'm paying for the class, and am LOVING the class, it's just one of those things where I think the best decision is to get enough sleep tonight. It's been a long past week...actually a long past couple of weeks...and I don't want to burn out so soon. The daily Wingspread, daily working, and almost-daily ballet are a lot, and my sister is sick and I just don't want to get anything, and sometimes rest is just the best medicine. I haven't had more than 5 hours in a while. Although it may sound paradoxical, I'm thinking I may improve at ballet faster if I start trying to get more rest and don't burn myself out and get sick or go to class exhausted and not learn so much or do things half-assed, ya know? Maybe I'm just trying to make myself feel better about my decision to sleep instead of go to class. I dunno why it's such a huge decision for me feel like I have to justify it. I won't get ballet again until Tuesday tho because of the holiday...I dunno, I just hope that this is not the lazy person inside me making this decision, but the rational one. I can't make missing class a habit. I've got to make taking better care of myself one tho.
Speaking of which I binged tonight after being good yesterday...but I know what it is, I *NEED* to bring food to rehearsal because it's not good to go so long without food because then I get super hungry and eat a lot really close to bed. Not good.
As much as I hate to miss the training that goodness knows I need, I am going to sleep through ballet tomorrow because I need the rest. Even though I'm paying for the class, and am LOVING the class, it's just one of those things where I think the best decision is to get enough sleep tonight. It's been a long past week...actually a long past couple of weeks...and I don't want to burn out so soon. The daily Wingspread, daily working, and almost-daily ballet are a lot, and my sister is sick and I just don't want to get anything, and sometimes rest is just the best medicine. I haven't had more than 5 hours in a while. Although it may sound paradoxical, I'm thinking I may improve at ballet faster if I start trying to get more rest and don't burn myself out and get sick or go to class exhausted and not learn so much or do things half-assed, ya know? Maybe I'm just trying to make myself feel better about my decision to sleep instead of go to class. I dunno why it's such a huge decision for me feel like I have to justify it. I won't get ballet again until Tuesday tho because of the holiday...I dunno, I just hope that this is not the lazy person inside me making this decision, but the rational one. I can't make missing class a habit. I've got to make taking better care of myself one tho.
Speaking of which I binged tonight after being good yesterday...but I know what it is, I *NEED* to bring food to rehearsal because it's not good to go so long without food because then I get super hungry and eat a lot really close to bed. Not good.