It's Christmas eve...
I haven't got my sister here with me. My brother is in Connecticut and might be back this afternoon and I don't know what's gonna happen this Christmas. Zoe said she'd come to midnight mass tonight with me and my mom and dad and possibly Linus and Papa. Meg is spending her Christmas in New York and I am very hurt. If it was for any other reason I would accept it and miss her but know she was just wanting something different but I know Meg and she likes her holiday traditions and the reason she is spending her Christmas in New York is because she can't stand to be around me right now.
I understand why but I just wish she would try to work it out with me instead of running away.
Running away from your problems doesn't solve anything. What if she came back and I was gone?
What if she didn't talk to me for so long that I just decided she didn't care enough about me anymore so I didn't want to give her my time?
She thinks I'll always be there but you can't think that about anyone. SHE of all people should know that.
I love you Meg and I wish you were here. I wish none of this had ever happened but you can't change the past.
Maybe I'll see you before the new year. Maybe I won't. I know it's lame to be saying all of this in a live Journal post but I really don't know when I'll get a chance to see you.
I have been really hurting for the past few weeks. Life is confusing.
I am young, I am dumb and I like anyone can let my emotions get the best of me but I don't want to let something so stupid ruin the most important friendship I have.
That's all I will write now. I've said too much already.
I understand why but I just wish she would try to work it out with me instead of running away.
Running away from your problems doesn't solve anything. What if she came back and I was gone?
What if she didn't talk to me for so long that I just decided she didn't care enough about me anymore so I didn't want to give her my time?
She thinks I'll always be there but you can't think that about anyone. SHE of all people should know that.
I love you Meg and I wish you were here. I wish none of this had ever happened but you can't change the past.
Maybe I'll see you before the new year. Maybe I won't. I know it's lame to be saying all of this in a live Journal post but I really don't know when I'll get a chance to see you.
I have been really hurting for the past few weeks. Life is confusing.
I am young, I am dumb and I like anyone can let my emotions get the best of me but I don't want to let something so stupid ruin the most important friendship I have.
That's all I will write now. I've said too much already.