i feel tiny
well i feel about as big as the tiniest hair on a small paintbrush. and i really need to decide what i want to do with my life. just had a scary violin lesson weas told basically i'm shite, but could be good. Had a new practice programme worked out for me, after i stopped the last one about two years ago. Now have to starrt with 20mins excercises,then 10mins scales, then 20mins itonation work then 40 mins pieces. aaarrgghhh still might be worth it. Went out last night with Phil, Maz, Al, Hane etc. got bladdered distubingly easily. am finding now that i am cutting down alcohol intake and have stopped other stuff it is getting very hard to stay sober as long. drugs are getting so tempting. but i know that if i start again i will be spending much more money and feelng even worse the day after. still woke up withoiut a hangover which was good. though was drenched in sweat. dunno why. party was quite amusing. i am really in need of a relationship but i am too scared to ever actually go after anyone like that i just piss around and try ad score with as many people as possible. anyone know any single, up for sex, alcoholic, good looking single females? i find it so hard to actually ever commit to anyone. hmm how depresing lngest relationship three and a half weeks. never had sex in a relationship. was talking to aHane last night and worked out i've done more substances in one nigth than i've had girlfriends. scary. oh well cya folks.