it was cold that night...
as i walked past the streetlight my feet passed across a road i cared not to wander, my thoughts wondered about what i could not see, and my eyes strolled along where i care not walk. my hands buried in my pockets, gripping my keys tightly, an unknown motive played about in my mind, driving me from this place. i had no reason to leave, for i was unthreatened by my surroundings, but nonetheless my legs hurried me towards a vessel i cared not to occupy. the cold nipped at my ears, the wind biting at my nose and teasing my hair about my face. i felt desperate, alone, but there wasnt even a face around to look at...how long had it been since i had felt her touch? an image of her face passed through my mind, but no name rolled off my tongue...the cold tore through my jacket, cut into my soul, and then vanished...a pain i could not keep, a love i could not know, an all too familiar sorrow numbed my being...i returned from my wonderings to realize my wanderings had taken my off course, just in time for instinct to overcome better judgement as i quickly stepped back onto the curb to avoid the oncoming vehicle...regret quickly overcame me as another cold gust forced my eyes shut for a brief second, just long enough to see her face again, and just as before my voice failed me, almost as if my mouth was keeping secrets from my heart...i had already walked block and saw my car sitting in the near distance... alone in a giant ocean of asphalt...i backed out carefully, making a conscious effort to avoid the cars parked uniformly on either side of me. i drove in silence, dying to hear her voice for just one moment. i made every turn i needed to, followed every direction i knew, but still wondered where i was headed... down dark roads, my mind traveled to darker places still, my thoughts rampaged into skyless nights...high beams flashed across my face and my eyes came shut for the briefest moment necessary, but it was enough time for me to see her again...but as quickly as it came it was gone quicker still and my teeth resumed their game with my tongue...i parked my car and put on my face, i greated them all by name, all the time wondering if they knew it was theirs...
"yeah man im fine, just a little tired"
"yeah, the cold really takes it outta ya, huh?"
so my face played its part well as my thoughts reclused from the sociality around me...and there was her face once again...this time my teeth could not cheat me from knowing her name...she was right there, in the midst of an ocean of a thousand faceless names stood the one face that i cared to name, the one being that i dared to love, but the one face i could not approach...so again i found myself walking past the streetlight, my feet taking me where they would, my thoughts governing their own destinations once again, my hands gripping my keys, and the wind danced jubilantly around my body...
and it was cold...
so yeah thats all me right there. i know it doesnt seem like much and its really ambiguous but i put a lot into it and any input would really mean a lot to me. lemme know if you have any questions about it. peace bitches.
"yeah man im fine, just a little tired"
"yeah, the cold really takes it outta ya, huh?"
so my face played its part well as my thoughts reclused from the sociality around me...and there was her face once again...this time my teeth could not cheat me from knowing her name...she was right there, in the midst of an ocean of a thousand faceless names stood the one face that i cared to name, the one being that i dared to love, but the one face i could not approach...so again i found myself walking past the streetlight, my feet taking me where they would, my thoughts governing their own destinations once again, my hands gripping my keys, and the wind danced jubilantly around my body...
and it was cold...
so yeah thats all me right there. i know it doesnt seem like much and its really ambiguous but i put a lot into it and any input would really mean a lot to me. lemme know if you have any questions about it. peace bitches.