being alone
I'm trying really hard to become independent in preparation for college in Dallas.
I don't know why, but there's always been this little fear of being alone. Anywhere. Anytime. It can be as petty as going inside a gas station alone, getting my haircut alone, going grocery shopping alone. Anything. I just hate the feeling of doing anything by myself in a public place.
I enjoy my own company, don't get me wrong. I enjoy sittings in my room drawing something. Or reading a good book just before bed.
But I hate the feeling of going anywhere by myself. I don't think I've ever shopped in the mall by myself. I've never eaten in a resturant by myself. I've never gone to a movie by myself. Until today, I never got my haircut alone. Until last week, I never went to the grocery store alone.
I don't know what it is.. I cling to people's company. I fear their separation. I feel awkward and out of place when my friends or family aren't beside me in public places.
If I really want to go the mall, but can't get anyone to go with me.. I'll just not go. Just because I can't stand being without someone there.
I don't know why, but there's always been this little fear of being alone. Anywhere. Anytime. It can be as petty as going inside a gas station alone, getting my haircut alone, going grocery shopping alone. Anything. I just hate the feeling of doing anything by myself in a public place.
I enjoy my own company, don't get me wrong. I enjoy sittings in my room drawing something. Or reading a good book just before bed.
But I hate the feeling of going anywhere by myself. I don't think I've ever shopped in the mall by myself. I've never eaten in a resturant by myself. I've never gone to a movie by myself. Until today, I never got my haircut alone. Until last week, I never went to the grocery store alone.
I don't know what it is.. I cling to people's company. I fear their separation. I feel awkward and out of place when my friends or family aren't beside me in public places.
If I really want to go the mall, but can't get anyone to go with me.. I'll just not go. Just because I can't stand being without someone there.