Down
I'm so ridiculously depressed. I find new and interesting ways to hide it. None of my friends or even my family notice I don't think. I've been eating so much Xanax and painkillers I wonder if I will end up with some kind of addiction. And saying that, I'm only about 1/2 way kidding. The money problems, medical bills, the girls' student loans, my health, Kirk's overbearing personality, my best friend living a thousand miles away now. It just keeps piling up. And I try so hard to tell myself to cheer up, people have it worse than me, blah blah blah. It just doesn't work. But damn I'm getting good at faking it.