no one ever said it was easy, oh it's such a shame for us to part

[dibstakoo]

it's hard describing how i feel...it's almost like this blank lonely feeling........the one you get when something is all of a sudden non-existent in your life, and there's nothing to fill that gap it took up in your heart. i left a huge portion of my heart to stay in the past...and it's hard living with out it. it was my life...my love...my passion...my talent...my childhood...my growing up years...my learning place...my crying place...my hiding place...and now? it's gone...for how long? only time can tell. who knows if i'll ever return to it...who knows if i'll ever be able to do the one thing i love ever again. just the thought of that brings me to near tears...the realization that i will never be the same once i quit, and my life is suddenly empty. fortunately i have a job to take up some of the excess room...but there's still a place that is needing to be filled. i think me leaving it behind was for the best...but sometimes i have my doubts. i listen to my music in the car and choreograph in my mind...reflections run through my head like cars zooming by on the freeway at rush hour as im sitting still watching it all. where does the time go? where does life go? where do i fit in it all...

"no body said it was easy
oh it's such a shame for us to part
no body said it was easy
no one ever said it would be so hard
im goin back to the start"