familiar posturing
family
Being with family is great, and a mindfuck, and survivable, and the holiday part is over. I'd like to say the same as Ian, remind me not to do it again, but it is the time when my family gathers, and I may always be drawn to being there, and the definition of family is that it can be terrible, but still one goes back.
friends
I am in a safehouse, bleeding lightly with a bad girl movie and a dog and a heating pad for feet and TV on the internet and goddamn it, get out of bed. I remember making no noise because of paranoia of the housemates. I remember creeping and hiding and the luxury of waking up late.
in short, languishing in first world paradise, versiòn antisocial. the cave is the same in any language-
el querer
Again, I don't know how the humans do it. So many things to balance. I feel I am bearing something always (el aguantar) and right now it is missing and questioning my relationship and my motives. It is the wait, too.
Ah, I should be writing. I should be being.
Being with family is great, and a mindfuck, and survivable, and the holiday part is over. I'd like to say the same as Ian, remind me not to do it again, but it is the time when my family gathers, and I may always be drawn to being there, and the definition of family is that it can be terrible, but still one goes back.
friends
I am in a safehouse, bleeding lightly with a bad girl movie and a dog and a heating pad for feet and TV on the internet and goddamn it, get out of bed. I remember making no noise because of paranoia of the housemates. I remember creeping and hiding and the luxury of waking up late.
in short, languishing in first world paradise, versiòn antisocial. the cave is the same in any language-
el querer
Again, I don't know how the humans do it. So many things to balance. I feel I am bearing something always (el aguantar) and right now it is missing and questioning my relationship and my motives. It is the wait, too.
Ah, I should be writing. I should be being.