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ok so i was feeling a little better about myself lately then i was board at work so i was glancing at some of my post dated entries and then i remembered how much my life sucks. Im starting to get good at dealing with it.
my buddy bill, actually hes kinda my new buddy cause i did kinda just meet him not to long ago but anyway, hes staying with me for a while. He needed a place to stay so i offered him a place. It makes me feel good to help other people, to try and make other peoples lifes just that much better ya know. I figure even if my life is hell im gonna do what i can to help others.
So like its wierd but i really like hanging out with my little sister. i have been taking her to theropy like 3 times a week and its been fun. i just remember that when i was her agae i looked up to my sister for everything, and she was a cool sister but i wanna be even cooler. I love that she loves her big brother, it makes me feel special. I seriously thank good for giving me so many people that love me in my life, cause if it wasnt for everyone that loves me i would have nothing to live for. But veronica is awesome, it really makes me smile like when she tells her friends and shit about stuff that we do, and actually i feel bad when i let her down like if im late, and i usually dont care. I just hope that i can be there for her whne she really needs a big brother.
Ok so i have a wedding o go to this saturday and i am short one date. I cant believe i am going to go alone, im gonna feel like suck a loser, fuck oh well whats new i guess. I do understand how certain people never wanna leave the house and do shit in public. public is so much work, you have to put up with all those same bullshit questions that everyone asks that you really dont answer truthfully cause you know they dont really care how you are doing. Then there is that feeling of damn look at everyone else and how far they have come and all the stuff they have its so much better then mine and then comes the self pitty and depression and that is very shortly followed by a lot of alcohol. public sucks!!
i watched the notebook again today! well i dont know about you but thats the second time ive seen it and its the second time i have cried. im not afraid to admit it, for some reason that movie just makes me sad. Dont lie you know that you cried too, im just not a panzy and can admit it. i do really like that movie though, i wish thats how life really was, and i wish i could find love like that. but then again dont we all
Ok so like i still havent found a job yet, im starting to care less and less about that shit, i know its bad of me to say but its way true, i know its something i have to do but i just dont give a fuck about it anymore. I do however think that i have an interview to become a carpenter apprentice, rivk just got in and he talked to some people for me and they told me to come down and fill out some paper work and shit. im so excited, this would be an answer to many prayers. I just hope i pass the drug test! i know im so bad.
Ok so i talked to edna the other day, it was wierd. I wanted to see her, but she says shes not ready to see me what ever that means i have no idea. I really do want to see her i want to catch up on old times and shit see how shes doing. Wanna hear something funny. I was watching the notebook today and i had to laugh. i was like what if that kinda happened with edna. i know its kinda funny, i really dont see it happening and i guess thats what makes it funny but i just had to giggle. I mean hell shes getting married for petes sake. It would be nice to be friends again though, she really is a great person!
Well thats enough for today i guess. Im outtie and i hope you all have a great day and i will checkya later!!!
my buddy bill, actually hes kinda my new buddy cause i did kinda just meet him not to long ago but anyway, hes staying with me for a while. He needed a place to stay so i offered him a place. It makes me feel good to help other people, to try and make other peoples lifes just that much better ya know. I figure even if my life is hell im gonna do what i can to help others.
So like its wierd but i really like hanging out with my little sister. i have been taking her to theropy like 3 times a week and its been fun. i just remember that when i was her agae i looked up to my sister for everything, and she was a cool sister but i wanna be even cooler. I love that she loves her big brother, it makes me feel special. I seriously thank good for giving me so many people that love me in my life, cause if it wasnt for everyone that loves me i would have nothing to live for. But veronica is awesome, it really makes me smile like when she tells her friends and shit about stuff that we do, and actually i feel bad when i let her down like if im late, and i usually dont care. I just hope that i can be there for her whne she really needs a big brother.
Ok so i have a wedding o go to this saturday and i am short one date. I cant believe i am going to go alone, im gonna feel like suck a loser, fuck oh well whats new i guess. I do understand how certain people never wanna leave the house and do shit in public. public is so much work, you have to put up with all those same bullshit questions that everyone asks that you really dont answer truthfully cause you know they dont really care how you are doing. Then there is that feeling of damn look at everyone else and how far they have come and all the stuff they have its so much better then mine and then comes the self pitty and depression and that is very shortly followed by a lot of alcohol. public sucks!!
i watched the notebook again today! well i dont know about you but thats the second time ive seen it and its the second time i have cried. im not afraid to admit it, for some reason that movie just makes me sad. Dont lie you know that you cried too, im just not a panzy and can admit it. i do really like that movie though, i wish thats how life really was, and i wish i could find love like that. but then again dont we all
Ok so like i still havent found a job yet, im starting to care less and less about that shit, i know its bad of me to say but its way true, i know its something i have to do but i just dont give a fuck about it anymore. I do however think that i have an interview to become a carpenter apprentice, rivk just got in and he talked to some people for me and they told me to come down and fill out some paper work and shit. im so excited, this would be an answer to many prayers. I just hope i pass the drug test! i know im so bad.
Ok so i talked to edna the other day, it was wierd. I wanted to see her, but she says shes not ready to see me what ever that means i have no idea. I really do want to see her i want to catch up on old times and shit see how shes doing. Wanna hear something funny. I was watching the notebook today and i had to laugh. i was like what if that kinda happened with edna. i know its kinda funny, i really dont see it happening and i guess thats what makes it funny but i just had to giggle. I mean hell shes getting married for petes sake. It would be nice to be friends again though, she really is a great person!
Well thats enough for today i guess. Im outtie and i hope you all have a great day and i will checkya later!!!