sadder than you will ever fucking know
ive been so fucking sad, pissed, and depressed this week and i have to get some of this stuff out before i lose my fucking mind. Alright so me and christin broke up last weekend and idk why we broke up or what exactly happened. I like her alot and i have for like a fucking year now. Ive been so depressed and sad about it all fucking week i said some stuff to her that i probally shouldn't have said and that i didn't mean but idk i dont think she wants anything to do with me. Ive been trying to keep my mind off things by getting fucked up or sneaking out or anything that i can think of so i dont fucking feel any pain. But i cant fucking get better im constantly trying to get my mind of things but i cant i remember being happy not too long ago and this whole week has been one of the worst weeks of my life. i dont even know what im gonna do anymore, i dont know what to say, i dont even know how to be my fucking self. ahhh damn it i wish i somebody would just say its gonna be ok and ill get over it but i dont know if it will.