(no subject)
Last Wednesday E was suppose to come over. He was suppose to take my daughter, brother and myself out to dinner. He got some big money.
Well, by 8:00 I began to worry cause he hadn't shown up. Usually he is late on Wednesdays. I had gotten all dressed up and put make-up on too. By nine-thirty I called his house. His son said he had left a long time ago to come to my place.
I started to feel angry. I had a sick feeling that he had gone to the Casino. One other time he did this but was only a couple hours late. I knew he had a problem. But it is his money.
Anyway by ten I ordered some dinner for my daughter and I. By eleven I went to bed...crying. I called his house again at 11:30, no E. I hoped that he hadn't gotten in an accident. By one I fell asleep only to be woken at about 3:30 in the morning as E was going out the bedroom door. I got up and asked him where he was going. He said he was leaving. I took him by the hand and brought him into my bedroom. I wasn't going to let him leave cause he had been drinking. He showed me the money he one at the Casino, and gave it to me. I put him to bed, and even though I wanted to tell him how upset I was I decided to say nothing until morning. He tossed and turned for quite a while.
In the morning we talked. I told him how upset I was and that he not only let me down he let my family down too. I said if he makes plans with me then that is where he should be, with me. If he wants to go to the Casino, do it when he is not seeing me. He doesn't pay my bills it is his money. And all the last month he was so depressed and I let it affect me. I told him if he ever wants more out of the relationship he better get help for it cause I can't handle the stress and being stood up!! He said he promised. I said don't tell me words show me by your actions.
We had a good weekend.
So it is Wednesday again. Let us see if he shows. Tomorrow I am going to his place for the weekend again. I can't stand not being with him.I am going to see my son tonight.
Well, by 8:00 I began to worry cause he hadn't shown up. Usually he is late on Wednesdays. I had gotten all dressed up and put make-up on too. By nine-thirty I called his house. His son said he had left a long time ago to come to my place.
I started to feel angry. I had a sick feeling that he had gone to the Casino. One other time he did this but was only a couple hours late. I knew he had a problem. But it is his money.
Anyway by ten I ordered some dinner for my daughter and I. By eleven I went to bed...crying. I called his house again at 11:30, no E. I hoped that he hadn't gotten in an accident. By one I fell asleep only to be woken at about 3:30 in the morning as E was going out the bedroom door. I got up and asked him where he was going. He said he was leaving. I took him by the hand and brought him into my bedroom. I wasn't going to let him leave cause he had been drinking. He showed me the money he one at the Casino, and gave it to me. I put him to bed, and even though I wanted to tell him how upset I was I decided to say nothing until morning. He tossed and turned for quite a while.
In the morning we talked. I told him how upset I was and that he not only let me down he let my family down too. I said if he makes plans with me then that is where he should be, with me. If he wants to go to the Casino, do it when he is not seeing me. He doesn't pay my bills it is his money. And all the last month he was so depressed and I let it affect me. I told him if he ever wants more out of the relationship he better get help for it cause I can't handle the stress and being stood up!! He said he promised. I said don't tell me words show me by your actions.
We had a good weekend.
So it is Wednesday again. Let us see if he shows. Tomorrow I am going to his place for the weekend again. I can't stand not being with him.I am going to see my son tonight.