Negative racing thoughts
I had a good day, Monday. Except when I went to bed I started worrying about "what if?" E decides to stop seeing me? I like him b/c we have fun together he makes me laugh and feel happy. I feel like I have a life again. But I am afraid of losing it. I have said that I will never be with anyone ever again because of what I have went through. But now I am afraid of being alone.
I can't have a sexual relationship. I can only be loving, caring... I started crying. What is going on with me? I hope that no matter what happens in our relationship that we will always be friends. I don't know if I can be more than friends. I wanted to call him last night but it was late. I eventually fell asleep.
My father called this morning they are going to come for a few days, they are getting new floors in their new home. They plan to visit other relatives while they are here.
That means that I think we are going to have a full house this weekend. I think I am going to call E today to see if we can do something on Saturday.
I can't have a sexual relationship. I can only be loving, caring... I started crying. What is going on with me? I hope that no matter what happens in our relationship that we will always be friends. I don't know if I can be more than friends. I wanted to call him last night but it was late. I eventually fell asleep.
My father called this morning they are going to come for a few days, they are getting new floors in their new home. They plan to visit other relatives while they are here.
That means that I think we are going to have a full house this weekend. I think I am going to call E today to see if we can do something on Saturday.