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Saturday my friend E and I were going to go over to M's house and then a movie. But M was going biking, so we ended up going to the States,to his place. I was entertained by one of E's grandaughters. Her Mom killed herself by shooting herself. Sad...His grandaughter asked me if I could be her mom. Sweet little girl.
I ended up drinking half of a large bottle of vodka. Feeling good. Spent the evening just talking. E told me that he has always had a crush on me. I told him I didn't think that I was ready for a serious relationship or sexual relationship. I don't know if I ever will especially the sex. I told him that because of what had happened to me in my marraige. I didn't tell him any details. But right now I feel happy, content and we have fun when we are together.
We were suppose to go for dancing lessons sunday but he called and had to cancel cause he was sick. I felt pretty bad, I had a headache that I had a hard time getting rid of. Slept about four hours in the afternoon.I guess that is the price you have to pay for feeling SO GOOD the night before. When he took me home he gave me a little kiss on the lips. I hope I am not sending the wrong message to him.I think that he is more serious about me than I am about him at this point of time. I am afraid of getting serious. I was thinking that I should date a number of men if that was meant to happpen.
I am going to be going with E to a wedding in a couple of weeks. need to get my hair done.
I ended up drinking half of a large bottle of vodka. Feeling good. Spent the evening just talking. E told me that he has always had a crush on me. I told him I didn't think that I was ready for a serious relationship or sexual relationship. I don't know if I ever will especially the sex. I told him that because of what had happened to me in my marraige. I didn't tell him any details. But right now I feel happy, content and we have fun when we are together.
We were suppose to go for dancing lessons sunday but he called and had to cancel cause he was sick. I felt pretty bad, I had a headache that I had a hard time getting rid of. Slept about four hours in the afternoon.I guess that is the price you have to pay for feeling SO GOOD the night before. When he took me home he gave me a little kiss on the lips. I hope I am not sending the wrong message to him.I think that he is more serious about me than I am about him at this point of time. I am afraid of getting serious. I was thinking that I should date a number of men if that was meant to happpen.
I am going to be going with E to a wedding in a couple of weeks. need to get my hair done.