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i started thinking today (and I know that's dangerous & have been told not to do such "nonsense" plenty of times before BUT) i realized that, a lot like samantha, my mind is a constant battlefield. it's almost ridiculous. there's a saying that says "sometimes holding on makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go". and i cant decide which one WOULD make me stronger at this point. i could hold on.. and see how thing would go, i mean i've already made it THIS far..why not wait it out jsut a little bit longer..OR there's the "where is this going, i've been in this for so long, and nothing drastic has happend, so why not give up now and spare myself hurt" mentality.. (if graham is reading this, he's prolly cussing me right now and telling me that i'm going back to my old ways, he thinks i should wait it out) and then of course, just because i'm geeky, i read my horoscope and it says "An investment you made with an ex is turning out to be more valuable than you realized, although not necessarily in monetary terms. After a few minor setbacks, your romantic life will surge ahead." i mean really.. what the heck?
also, i agree with sara. she said, " i believe that good people are people who have things happen to them, terrible things, and they never ask questions. " definately true, and i am DEFINATELY NOT one of those people.