make me feel so small
I hope everyone saw me on the MTV Backyard Barbeque. I am so not a sports person and Michelle has already teased me endlessly about my horrible throwing skills. At least I got to run around and wear funny pants for the day.
I'm hopping off the tour after we hit LA on Friday. It's going to be sad leaving Chelle and Jess, but I have some stuff to take care of. I am going to miss wearing short shorts and strutting around Chelle's band *giggles* I will miss late night girly talks with Jess and eating tons of junk food. I wish Michelle and Jess luck with the rest of the tour, though they don't need it ;) I should also give props to Josh for putting up with us for so long, espcially those few days when Jen was with us. I know we were pretty odd :-*
Darren is coming to visit either tomorrow or Friday, so hopefully there will be something planned then. I miss him :( Benny and his mom have been staying at my place in LA and looking after the twins. I must have called him 4 times just in the past week checking up on everything. Last night on the phone we were discussing the twins, and we realized that we never named Godparents for the them. He and I decided on the Godparents and I am going back to Germany with them on Sunday. We may just have a small party-type thing there for the twins, that way everyone who is involved will be close by.
Benny and I were planning on keeping our decisions a secret, but I was too impatient ;) I asked Bob to be the Godfather of the twins, and Benny has asked Cori to be the Godmother. How exciting!
Nat is back and I am estatic <3 She is just the sweetest thing and I love her to death. We have gotten so close lately, and we are almost like sisters. She is always supportive and there for me when I need it the most. She is coming to visit on Friday and I can't wait! I really can't wait for her to meet Darren and see the twins again. I may cling to her and never let go :-[
Speaking again of the twins, Jocelyn and Benny Jr. will be turning one pretty soon. I really can't believe it, time has gone by so fast. Ezra will also be turning one around the same time, which has Nat just as excited. We should really give them a joint party or something.
I guess I'll conclude with a thought or two that have been swimming inside my head for a few days. Things have happened lately that have caused me to just look the other way and ignore it. I don't care to let things ruin my day anymore. If people choose to act like they know me, then fine. They are only a few people who truly know me inside and out. There are those who know me well, and are good friends. Then, there are those who think they see my exterior and use that against me. I am not what you may see in my everyday life. I have something deeper inside of me that few people know of. There is more to me then what people are willing to see. They can be shallow, I don't mind. Just don't think that I can be walked on. I am moving on with my life, so get used to it.
On that note, I'm going to eat some cake :-*
I'm hopping off the tour after we hit LA on Friday. It's going to be sad leaving Chelle and Jess, but I have some stuff to take care of. I am going to miss wearing short shorts and strutting around Chelle's band *giggles* I will miss late night girly talks with Jess and eating tons of junk food. I wish Michelle and Jess luck with the rest of the tour, though they don't need it ;) I should also give props to Josh for putting up with us for so long, espcially those few days when Jen was with us. I know we were pretty odd :-*
Darren is coming to visit either tomorrow or Friday, so hopefully there will be something planned then. I miss him :( Benny and his mom have been staying at my place in LA and looking after the twins. I must have called him 4 times just in the past week checking up on everything. Last night on the phone we were discussing the twins, and we realized that we never named Godparents for the them. He and I decided on the Godparents and I am going back to Germany with them on Sunday. We may just have a small party-type thing there for the twins, that way everyone who is involved will be close by.
Benny and I were planning on keeping our decisions a secret, but I was too impatient ;) I asked Bob to be the Godfather of the twins, and Benny has asked Cori to be the Godmother. How exciting!
Nat is back and I am estatic <3 She is just the sweetest thing and I love her to death. We have gotten so close lately, and we are almost like sisters. She is always supportive and there for me when I need it the most. She is coming to visit on Friday and I can't wait! I really can't wait for her to meet Darren and see the twins again. I may cling to her and never let go :-[
Speaking again of the twins, Jocelyn and Benny Jr. will be turning one pretty soon. I really can't believe it, time has gone by so fast. Ezra will also be turning one around the same time, which has Nat just as excited. We should really give them a joint party or something.
I guess I'll conclude with a thought or two that have been swimming inside my head for a few days. Things have happened lately that have caused me to just look the other way and ignore it. I don't care to let things ruin my day anymore. If people choose to act like they know me, then fine. They are only a few people who truly know me inside and out. There are those who know me well, and are good friends. Then, there are those who think they see my exterior and use that against me. I am not what you may see in my everyday life. I have something deeper inside of me that few people know of. There is more to me then what people are willing to see. They can be shallow, I don't mind. Just don't think that I can be walked on. I am moving on with my life, so get used to it.
On that note, I'm going to eat some cake :-*