i write WHEN I want to
is believing that there is someone out there for everyone just another way for us to make it through these endless days and these empty relationships? or is it true? is there someone out there with a label indicating that they belong to me? i'm not so sure anymore, and i'm not so sure if loving someone is enough. i think life is trying to prove to me, that if things don't fall into place, then it's just not meant to be. and for so long, i was so sure taht i was meant to be with you, but because of your words i now dont' know. but that kiss; will i eve find someone to kiss me like that again? do i really want to give that up? this is where the problem lies, because i dont' think so. i think i want that kiss forever, but then again, when attached to pain and tears that kiss really isn't so sweet, now is it??so what do i want? am i looking for you to change? am i looking for someone new? or am i just looking to be alone?
funny thing is, i haven't been alone in so long. i forgot what it was like. all i remember is that it starts out great, but then...it gets lonely. it's kinda strange, cause relationships tend to follow that same pattern. i guess i'll figure this all out soon. i'll just got with the flow and observe him, observe myself, then maybe i'll know. hopefully... cause this just isn't fair anymore...
funny thing is, i haven't been alone in so long. i forgot what it was like. all i remember is that it starts out great, but then...it gets lonely. it's kinda strange, cause relationships tend to follow that same pattern. i guess i'll figure this all out soon. i'll just got with the flow and observe him, observe myself, then maybe i'll know. hopefully... cause this just isn't fair anymore...