Welcome to bordem
You hear kids whine about it all the time - "I'm bored!" It's usually followed by parents offering ideas kids are never fond of. "Go clean your room" was always a favorite used by my mom. And she was always right, my room did need to be cleaned - it still does - but for now it would only offer temporary solace.
See I'm not just bored...I'm bored in most extreme sort of way - I literally have nothing to do. Besides exercising and napping everyday, I have no routine, no schedule, no place to be, no (real) responsibilities, nothing. It's an odd feeling, and particularly difficult for me to deal with since I can hardly stand to do one thing at a time. I play computer games and watch tv at the same time, I read while I eat, I think while I drive (which has come to be a problem since I've been missing turns pretty frequently), and I write while I talk on the phone.
So it may be that I keep occupied during the day, but as my previous entries have whined about, I have no where to go (figuratively in this sense). It only makes it worse since it is such a sharp contrast to my time in Australia where there was always something to do, something to see, and I had to be at certain places at certain times. All this time has made me think about going back there - as I mentioned - and getting my masters degree but I'm worried that it just won't be the same (among many other things).
I have started applying for jobs - sent my resume to 4 different companies for jobs that I am definitely qualified for. At least the prospect of getting a job gives me something to look forward to since after I secure one I can start looking for my own place to live. Just how long this entire process is going to take is anyone's guess - hopefully I don't go insane before then...
On the positive side I am starting to feel a little more comfortable with not having a "life plan" or rough outline, if you will, feeling more secure that I don't need to decide it all right now. I can always change things should I decide they aren't right down the road - nothing's permanent. Knowing that this bordem isn't permanent helps too. I'll get where I want to go, even if I take a few detours to figure it out.
See I'm not just bored...I'm bored in most extreme sort of way - I literally have nothing to do. Besides exercising and napping everyday, I have no routine, no schedule, no place to be, no (real) responsibilities, nothing. It's an odd feeling, and particularly difficult for me to deal with since I can hardly stand to do one thing at a time. I play computer games and watch tv at the same time, I read while I eat, I think while I drive (which has come to be a problem since I've been missing turns pretty frequently), and I write while I talk on the phone.
So it may be that I keep occupied during the day, but as my previous entries have whined about, I have no where to go (figuratively in this sense). It only makes it worse since it is such a sharp contrast to my time in Australia where there was always something to do, something to see, and I had to be at certain places at certain times. All this time has made me think about going back there - as I mentioned - and getting my masters degree but I'm worried that it just won't be the same (among many other things).
I have started applying for jobs - sent my resume to 4 different companies for jobs that I am definitely qualified for. At least the prospect of getting a job gives me something to look forward to since after I secure one I can start looking for my own place to live. Just how long this entire process is going to take is anyone's guess - hopefully I don't go insane before then...
On the positive side I am starting to feel a little more comfortable with not having a "life plan" or rough outline, if you will, feeling more secure that I don't need to decide it all right now. I can always change things should I decide they aren't right down the road - nothing's permanent. Knowing that this bordem isn't permanent helps too. I'll get where I want to go, even if I take a few detours to figure it out.