sigh...
so far it's been a busy week.
i know, it's only Tuesday. so far this week i have:
-signed a lease for a house to live in next year with my roommates
-pretty much decided that i will graduate next year
-(in a group) gave a 15 minute presentation in front of a class of 100
so i know there are only three things. but these are 3 BIG things. the first two especially - life decisions. they always make me nervous. while the lease may be a legal document and pretty much set in stone, graduation i can always change my mind about.
here's my comments on the two situations:
finding a house was a big pain, and i feel like there were a lot of issues that came up AFTER signing the lease that probably should have been discussed beforehand. but whatever, i think everyone is satisfied with it. it's a really nice house, 4 bedrooms (well 5 if someone lives in the basement) and 1.5 bathrooms. everyone will get their own room, which will be nice (i'll comment on that in a minute). I'll finally have some personal space.
deciding to graduate in 3 years has been a somewhat tough decision. although, the more i think about it, the more I'm confident it's the right choice. my arguments are that after next year I'll have all of my major AND minor classes finished, so what would i do for the entire fourth year? I could maybe drag it out into ONE more semester but definitely not two. I think it would also work for me to graduate in may, but then go study abroad for 6 weeks over the summer - which i would really like to do. the biggest thing i have been struggling with is everyone's question as to "why are you rushing?" i don't really have an answer, because i don't really feel like i'm rushing. I know i have my whole life to work, but I feel like i want to get out in the real world and get things accomplished. not just in terms of like earning a lot of money, or having success, i just want to communicate my ideas and express my talents to a (relatively) larger audience than merely my professors and classmates. that makes it kind of sound like i'm looking for fame - which i'm NOT, so don't interpret it the wrong way. I discussed it with my advisor today and she really thinks i should go for it...but i still want to discuss it with my mom and dad. i'll keep you posted.
so maybe i'm just crabby this week, but lately i've been more irritated by some certain people (i don't know for sure who exactly reads this, and i'm guessing that mentioned parties don't, but still...better be safe than have someone in my face about it). while one of them i understand his/her circumstances of behaving the way he/she is, i'm still frustrated that it's being taken out on me. because then i feel like i have to be defensive, which i don't like doing. i think it's unfair to put anyone in a position to get defensive, because no one should really have to explain themselves to someone else. if that even makes sense. i don't need to be attacked because i feel a certain way. everyone is entitled to their own feelings and opinions.
i've also been feeling like i'm a million miles ahead in terms of maturity with a handful of friends. and while everyone seems to think this should be a POSITIVE thing - to be honest, it's not. everyone knows how irritating immature people are...it's usually that basic. and what sucks even more is that these people don't even know that they are immature, and won't know that they're immature until they're mature enough to realize that "hey, like 3 years ago, man I was dumb and immature." That is IF(BIG BOLD IF) they do ever get to that point of realization - which in some cases may never happen. or at least not in my lifetime. which i guess is yet another of my motivations to finish up school and move into the real world - i have a faint hope that people there are at least somewhat mature. i would hope that they've woken up to the actuality (i don't think that's a word, but i'm not sure) of life. I know there will always be those people that never get passed junior high, but right now i'm sick of the "college student" mentality (i need to get drunk and go to parties - which I KNOW is not the mentality of all college students, i'm merely making reference to the mentality of the immature people i speak of). if i wanted to get on a whole other tangent, i would talk about the lack of common sense among some people i know - but it's frustrating to think about, so i don't feel like typing it.
sigh
i feel so cynical and critical. but right now this is the way i feel. so deal with it.
and it's not that i don't love and appreciate my friends, because i do, a lot. but these are natural feelings it's impossible to get along GREAT with every person ALL of the time. and it's difficult to like EVERY single aspect of a person's personality. I'm sure right now you're thinking of things you don't like about me - that's fine. there's probably things I don't like about you! ;-) maybe "dislike" is too strong of a word, so maybe "irritating idiosyncrasies" would be better.
i should end on a positive note so here are some exciting and happy things:
well actually, it was exciting to see all the fights in the Wild game against Calgary - i had a really good time at the game with John! :-) and of course, I can't remember if i mentioned the Wild have clinched a spot in the playoffs, so I'm looking forward to going to the 1st and (hopefully) 2nd round games!
steve and i went and saw "Head of State" tonight, and then went out to dinner. we went on a date, the movie was really funny and we were the only white people in the theater!! i think the movie was really well done though - it's a good hearted comedy. I recommend it! it's so fun to go on dates with steve too. things are still going really well (you may have thought different since i haven't gushed in here forever - but i really haven't had time) and I still really enjoy his company - even in small things like dinner and a movie. words can't describe how much i love him. :-)
the twins home opener is on Friday, which steve and I are going to, so i'm looking forward to that. hopefully they'll win!
Saturday morning i'm having breakfast with my 2nd cousin. we're pretty good pals, talking online every once and awhile, but we really have a good time when we get together for the family reunions. he's going to be in town, so i'm meeting him and his girlfriend - it should be fun to catch up!
this is really long. i'm sure no one is reading by now anyway.
so i'm off to bed!
goodnight all!
i know, it's only Tuesday. so far this week i have:
-signed a lease for a house to live in next year with my roommates
-pretty much decided that i will graduate next year
-(in a group) gave a 15 minute presentation in front of a class of 100
so i know there are only three things. but these are 3 BIG things. the first two especially - life decisions. they always make me nervous. while the lease may be a legal document and pretty much set in stone, graduation i can always change my mind about.
here's my comments on the two situations:
finding a house was a big pain, and i feel like there were a lot of issues that came up AFTER signing the lease that probably should have been discussed beforehand. but whatever, i think everyone is satisfied with it. it's a really nice house, 4 bedrooms (well 5 if someone lives in the basement) and 1.5 bathrooms. everyone will get their own room, which will be nice (i'll comment on that in a minute). I'll finally have some personal space.
deciding to graduate in 3 years has been a somewhat tough decision. although, the more i think about it, the more I'm confident it's the right choice. my arguments are that after next year I'll have all of my major AND minor classes finished, so what would i do for the entire fourth year? I could maybe drag it out into ONE more semester but definitely not two. I think it would also work for me to graduate in may, but then go study abroad for 6 weeks over the summer - which i would really like to do. the biggest thing i have been struggling with is everyone's question as to "why are you rushing?" i don't really have an answer, because i don't really feel like i'm rushing. I know i have my whole life to work, but I feel like i want to get out in the real world and get things accomplished. not just in terms of like earning a lot of money, or having success, i just want to communicate my ideas and express my talents to a (relatively) larger audience than merely my professors and classmates. that makes it kind of sound like i'm looking for fame - which i'm NOT, so don't interpret it the wrong way. I discussed it with my advisor today and she really thinks i should go for it...but i still want to discuss it with my mom and dad. i'll keep you posted.
so maybe i'm just crabby this week, but lately i've been more irritated by some certain people (i don't know for sure who exactly reads this, and i'm guessing that mentioned parties don't, but still...better be safe than have someone in my face about it). while one of them i understand his/her circumstances of behaving the way he/she is, i'm still frustrated that it's being taken out on me. because then i feel like i have to be defensive, which i don't like doing. i think it's unfair to put anyone in a position to get defensive, because no one should really have to explain themselves to someone else. if that even makes sense. i don't need to be attacked because i feel a certain way. everyone is entitled to their own feelings and opinions.
i've also been feeling like i'm a million miles ahead in terms of maturity with a handful of friends. and while everyone seems to think this should be a POSITIVE thing - to be honest, it's not. everyone knows how irritating immature people are...it's usually that basic. and what sucks even more is that these people don't even know that they are immature, and won't know that they're immature until they're mature enough to realize that "hey, like 3 years ago, man I was dumb and immature." That is IF(BIG BOLD IF) they do ever get to that point of realization - which in some cases may never happen. or at least not in my lifetime. which i guess is yet another of my motivations to finish up school and move into the real world - i have a faint hope that people there are at least somewhat mature. i would hope that they've woken up to the actuality (i don't think that's a word, but i'm not sure) of life. I know there will always be those people that never get passed junior high, but right now i'm sick of the "college student" mentality (i need to get drunk and go to parties - which I KNOW is not the mentality of all college students, i'm merely making reference to the mentality of the immature people i speak of). if i wanted to get on a whole other tangent, i would talk about the lack of common sense among some people i know - but it's frustrating to think about, so i don't feel like typing it.
sigh
i feel so cynical and critical. but right now this is the way i feel. so deal with it.
and it's not that i don't love and appreciate my friends, because i do, a lot. but these are natural feelings it's impossible to get along GREAT with every person ALL of the time. and it's difficult to like EVERY single aspect of a person's personality. I'm sure right now you're thinking of things you don't like about me - that's fine. there's probably things I don't like about you! ;-) maybe "dislike" is too strong of a word, so maybe "irritating idiosyncrasies" would be better.
i should end on a positive note so here are some exciting and happy things:
well actually, it was exciting to see all the fights in the Wild game against Calgary - i had a really good time at the game with John! :-) and of course, I can't remember if i mentioned the Wild have clinched a spot in the playoffs, so I'm looking forward to going to the 1st and (hopefully) 2nd round games!
steve and i went and saw "Head of State" tonight, and then went out to dinner. we went on a date, the movie was really funny and we were the only white people in the theater!! i think the movie was really well done though - it's a good hearted comedy. I recommend it! it's so fun to go on dates with steve too. things are still going really well (you may have thought different since i haven't gushed in here forever - but i really haven't had time) and I still really enjoy his company - even in small things like dinner and a movie. words can't describe how much i love him. :-)
the twins home opener is on Friday, which steve and I are going to, so i'm looking forward to that. hopefully they'll win!
Saturday morning i'm having breakfast with my 2nd cousin. we're pretty good pals, talking online every once and awhile, but we really have a good time when we get together for the family reunions. he's going to be in town, so i'm meeting him and his girlfriend - it should be fun to catch up!
this is really long. i'm sure no one is reading by now anyway.
so i'm off to bed!
goodnight all!