decision making time
alright. i'm thinking of quitting my job. why? i'm getting to damn tired. maybe i'm not their best writer but the schedule and the stress is way too much for me already. yes, my workload didn't change, i always get 45 articles to abstract each batch - that's the maximum. but unlike before, i could never finish them ahead of the scheduled deadline. i would always end up cramming. as a result, i would always end up going home around 10pm (earliest) to 7am (the next day). yes, they pay me for overtime, they would even advice me to stay at home the next day...and yes, every after deadline, i would spend a whole day at home to recharge but it's always not enough...
i skipped two days from work (thursday and friday) - some things just happened in the office that caused me to be in a very bad mood. but to not be unfair, i asked Ate Lady (out team assistant) to email me my workload...so far, i was able to do them...but as i type the abstracts for each article, i'm thinking of typing a resignation letter instead...
but then i would think of what would i do after i quit. would i look for a new job? of course. i need a job. i have too many things to buy and i have to help out with the finances here at home. should i secure myself a job before quitting? it seems a good option. and it's one of the things my Ate told me. unfortunately, with the hectic schedules week after week, i don't think i can spare even an hour to look for a job on the internet. then i would remember that i don't seem to have enough savings, so i'm thinking that maybe i should quit the moment 2011 comes. but i asked myself if i would be able to hold on until that time. yeah, maybe 2011 is just two months and a couple of weeks away - time flies by so quickly nowadays - but i'm pretty sure a lot of things would still be happening at that period.
also, i would end up thinking about my officemates. yes, maybe they can never be close to me like my school friends but i learned to rely on them and vice versa. if i quit, the workload that should be mine would be given to them. i'm not the only one dying with the weight of our workload, of course, they are too. meaning, if i quit, i would make things harder for them and of course i would feel guilty. maybe i'm being too nice...
this is really complicated, i have no idea what i should do...i'm driving myself crazy from weighing the pros and cons...i don't want to do something which i wasn't able to think over...
i skipped two days from work (thursday and friday) - some things just happened in the office that caused me to be in a very bad mood. but to not be unfair, i asked Ate Lady (out team assistant) to email me my workload...so far, i was able to do them...but as i type the abstracts for each article, i'm thinking of typing a resignation letter instead...
but then i would think of what would i do after i quit. would i look for a new job? of course. i need a job. i have too many things to buy and i have to help out with the finances here at home. should i secure myself a job before quitting? it seems a good option. and it's one of the things my Ate told me. unfortunately, with the hectic schedules week after week, i don't think i can spare even an hour to look for a job on the internet. then i would remember that i don't seem to have enough savings, so i'm thinking that maybe i should quit the moment 2011 comes. but i asked myself if i would be able to hold on until that time. yeah, maybe 2011 is just two months and a couple of weeks away - time flies by so quickly nowadays - but i'm pretty sure a lot of things would still be happening at that period.
also, i would end up thinking about my officemates. yes, maybe they can never be close to me like my school friends but i learned to rely on them and vice versa. if i quit, the workload that should be mine would be given to them. i'm not the only one dying with the weight of our workload, of course, they are too. meaning, if i quit, i would make things harder for them and of course i would feel guilty. maybe i'm being too nice...
this is really complicated, i have no idea what i should do...i'm driving myself crazy from weighing the pros and cons...i don't want to do something which i wasn't able to think over...