i dont even know if any of my friends are still on this...
I don't know if anyone will be reading this or what, but that isnt the point. I guess i just need to vent my frustration...and any advice would be welcomed.
I went to newberry college bc i loved the atmosphere and bc i was confused about where to go for college...i really didnt want to go anyway, and since i got mroe scholarship money from there and my real dad urged me to go there, i felt obligated to go there.
somewhere along the way, the accumulation of the total culture shock of the small community, my deep depression over my crazy ex-boyfirend, and the tearing of myself into two worlds (home and college), i somehow (and quite expectedly) lost my knowledge of myself and my love of singing.
the tragedy.(ok...over dramatic i know, but still...)
I have lost any idea of what i want and how to get it and i am just LOST. I used to love singing but now it is all technique, and i feel like i am not even doing the right technique. I cant PERFORM anymore. and frankly, the lack of motivation i feel from my peers brings me right down with them.
so i want to leave. i want to come back home and go to ga state where i KNOW i would get great experience and advisement. i would be among dedicated individuals wishing to be the very best. but i dont want to WAIT i want to go now...and i know that it isnt even possible...or is it?
i guess i will apply as a transfer, despite the long road i will be taking to acutally graduate now that most of my credits wont even transfer. i just hope that i wont be completely lost at gsu like i am at newberry.
so. anyone out there...any advice?
<3 cait
I went to newberry college bc i loved the atmosphere and bc i was confused about where to go for college...i really didnt want to go anyway, and since i got mroe scholarship money from there and my real dad urged me to go there, i felt obligated to go there.
somewhere along the way, the accumulation of the total culture shock of the small community, my deep depression over my crazy ex-boyfirend, and the tearing of myself into two worlds (home and college), i somehow (and quite expectedly) lost my knowledge of myself and my love of singing.
the tragedy.(ok...over dramatic i know, but still...)
I have lost any idea of what i want and how to get it and i am just LOST. I used to love singing but now it is all technique, and i feel like i am not even doing the right technique. I cant PERFORM anymore. and frankly, the lack of motivation i feel from my peers brings me right down with them.
so i want to leave. i want to come back home and go to ga state where i KNOW i would get great experience and advisement. i would be among dedicated individuals wishing to be the very best. but i dont want to WAIT i want to go now...and i know that it isnt even possible...or is it?
i guess i will apply as a transfer, despite the long road i will be taking to acutally graduate now that most of my credits wont even transfer. i just hope that i wont be completely lost at gsu like i am at newberry.
so. anyone out there...any advice?
<3 cait