in the mourning

[diamondqull]

So, Josh and Zac left Paramore and it was kind of gutting but the three that are left keep insisting they're STILL A BAND, so guess we've got to believe them.

What's more, Hayley recently tumblrd new lyrics, which led to her posting a demo on the band's website. The lyrics and melody are HYPNOTIC and I can not get them out of my head. The whole thing is great, but it's the chorus which has really gotten to me.

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one, her voice is amazing
two, killer harmonies
three, OHMYGOSH THOSE LYRICS.

in the mourning i’ll rise
in the mourning i’ll let you die
in the mourning. all my worry.

.....

can you hear the echoes fading
in the mourning i’ll rise
in the mourning i’ll let you die
in the mourning. all my sorry’s.

I've been thinking all day about why they resonate so much for me (in between singing the chorus again and again and getting on everybody's nerves). I just think the message is really powerful - this idea that it's only in fully mourning someone or something that you can 'rise' and lay it/them to rest/die. It's like the song is saying that it is okay to grieve and be sad because ultimately it's that sorrow which empowers us to move on and climb back to where we originally were. The play on words is fantastic too; it's such a simple pun yet so effective.

Yeah, I'm being a fangirl. It's not just about this specific song though; I've been thinking all day about emotive lyrics/words can be. It's humbling the extent to which one person and the words they choose to lay down on a page or wall or screen can effect me. The more time I spend living in a foreign language, the more I realise how much I value my ability to express myself fluently and without boundaries in my mother tongue. I'm coming to terms with the fact that nearly every sentence I utter in French isn't shaped to quite the perfection I'd like, but that it's ok because I'm still learning (and will be for a very very long time).

So yeah. There's my philosophical musing of the day. I know I should update this LJ more often but life keeps getting in the way. Hope everyone is well - if you ever wonder what's happening with me then you can check out my blog about France:
www.9monthsinfrance.wordpress.com

I've been writing a lot recently, so hopefully I'll be posting some of it soonish.