I really feel like I'm losing my best friend, I can't believe this could be real.

[diamondjul]

My pool is officially ready!  I can't wait to go swimming with um my friends?  And by that I mean Rob.  Becasue he is slowly becoming my only friend.  But it is my fault anyway.  Summer has been pretty good so far.  I actually got to hang out with Marsh like twice and some other people too.  I don't know why I am such a bitch.  I am sorry.  I just

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Re: Sorry

[diamondjul]

Thanks for finally standing up for yourself. Kinda gay that you had to do it in my Livejournal. I am sorry for feeling the way I do. I am sorry for making you so upset. I am also sorry for not being used to you having fun with out me. So now I am going to sound like a little bitch and explain myself. In the days before Rob, you and I were inseperable. We went everywhere together and everyone knew this. We had fun together. Now in the days after Rob, we don't really do that anymore and I know you go out and have fun with others and I am not used to it. I am not saying that you have to sit on your ass and wait for me. And since we are getting things out in the open that really pissed me off that you said that. I know I am a bitch about it sometimes but I am joking when I say that stuff. And yea maybe I am a little jealous but I never think you should "fucking twiddle your thumbs" and wait around for me. The one time I did get a little upset about that was when I told you I could hang out later and then you did something else and didn't call me at all and say here I am doing this come over whenever so when I treid to call you, you where not around. As for the 3rd wheel situations there hasn't really been any since Titanic except for when I am taking you guys home and since you don't drive it looks like you will have to put up with that one or else I won't be taking you home after stuff anymore. I don't know what else you want me to say. I am sorry that I ever even wrote this entry because we have hung out since then and blah blah. But I am glad you wrote what you did because you should have told me all of this a looong time ago. And I am extremly tired of thinking/writing this comment right now so I will talk to you tomorrow.

P.S. I am sorry for being a jealous, controling, demanding, needy friend. I am resembling my dad in many of those aspects and I hate it. I understand your want for wanting to "disappear" when you are with me. I understand. Believe me. I am so sorry.