New Years Kisses and other stuff
So I'm sitting in Mc Donalds at 11pm and drinking tea cause I have no wi-fi.. Just wanted to recap over the holidays and back to college stuff...
I went home for two weeks. As always family can get irritating after a certain amount of time.. But in general I got on pretty well with them.. Probably because I spent more time in friend's houses than actually at home! It was a fun Christmas though.. Was really nice to catch up with friends I hadn't seen in a long time. Although I did find that certain people just seemed to annoy the hell out of me as I haven't been around and I got unused to them again.. Sometimes I find I need to take a step back from people to find out what I truly think of them because I often find I become immersed in situations and people and don't realise the faults in them.. It is good to know faults as well as greatness.
Over the holidays I spent a lot of time going out, drinking and talking and I realised how much I miss those people that were important in my early teenage years. A friend, James, and I spent a whole night drinking, walking around my deserted town and talking talking talking! I didn't get home until 6am! On New Years Eve I was supposed to be going to an associate's 21st birthday party but she changed the venue two hours before the event and we had already bought tickets! So I decided, Fuck her.. I had bought my ticket and made my plans and it's not like she's such a good friend that I'd waste my ticket.. I will do anything for people I care about but not in this case where calling them a friend is putting it strong...
Anywhos.. In a way I'm glad I didn't follow her because I had an awesome time... And may have made a slight fool of myself in relation to my brother's friend.. I have always had the hots for this guy and he was in the pub that night and I decided I was a tigress and was going on the prowl... haha So I did my best even though I knew the chances were low because of his friendship with my brother.. We were talking away and we just get on really well. We like similar music, alcohol, he likes conspiracy theories and the film V for Vendetta and book 1984.. He's tall, a lovely guy (he even let me sleep on his shoulder once when we were coming home from a concert with my brother :3) and there is just something about him!! I've had this crush for years and was always the younger sister.. I consider myself an adult now... Well I am an adult so I just hoped he'd see me as a woman and not my brother's little sister.. So as we were talking about alcohol (I'm Irish! We talk about it a lot!) I asked him if being drunk would be an excuse to kiss him... Unfortunately that attempt failed.. And being desperate I said "Not even a New Year's Kiss?" And I kissed him on the lips.. I'm pretty glad I got to kiss him once.But I am hard to satisfy and because I can't have him it makes me want him more... The more I think about it the more I think I should have just kissed him without saying anything... Gahhh damn you brain for over-analysing stuff! So that was my New Year..
So I'm back to college now. I'm making an effort to be more social and try and mix with my classmates. Although it does mean I'm smoking a lot more now because we always go out for cigarettes.. :/ Ah well.. Oh I got back results from college and Im quite happy.. doing pretty well in general.. I got a B+ in my Theatre essay! :)
I have been considering writing a Belldom story that has been in my head for quite a while now.. I started it but haven't gotten into the flow of things yet.. It has been a long time since I've written creatively... Speaking of Muse I had a dream the other night where Chris and Dom appeared.. It was New Years Night and I had gone to the pub with Chris and some friends.. and Dom was there but he was really pissed off and nobody seemed to notice except me and I went to talk to him before he exploded with anger.. Not literaly.. Then I ended up on my own in a strange place unable to find any people.. Strange... AHH BATTERY DYING!!! GOTTA GO!