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PRIVATE TO SELF
Daddy caught me throwing up. I tried to pretend that I wasn't. I feel terrible. That was wrong. I was just afraid that he'd find the pearls. There were two really large ones and I think I also had thrown up a ruby. I flushed the toilet before he could look inside but he seemed so sad and angry and hurt. I started to cry and he went and phone Mom. I know they're going to call a psychiatrist and I don't know what I'm going to do. They've been talking about me quietly and they never used to talk about me. They always talked about Ruby or Edmund. I have to win at Nationals this year! I have to. I just have to. I want to stop throwing up.
Dear God, please let me stop throwing up. I'll be good, I promise! I'll be very, very good!
I hope that they were right and Professor Anser knows what to do. He's very smart and very nice. I hope he knows. Dear God, please let him know what to do.
PRIVATE TO ANSER
Dear Professor Anser,
I hope that this is working. I have never tried the charms like this before. Please let me know if I have done it wrong. I want to do it properly.
Thank you for helping me with so many things. You are very nice and I appreciate it. I know you are a very important and busy man but I do need some help and some people told me that you might be able to help me.
My parents are going to send me to a psychiatrist and I was wondering if you knew of one that understands about Tale-hood? Fairy Tales. Do you think you could help me? I don't want them to make me quit gymnastics or put me in an institution.
Love,
Pearl