this is to the people who saved me
The last 3 years of my life have been the hardest for me. But i was very lucky. each year i had an amazing person to help me through all the bullshit, and boys, and heart break. A different person each year who each did the same thing... helped me survive.
freshman year Carressa... I would NOT have made it without you, thats a fact. You are the reason i started keeping a notebook, something i still do. You were the first person to love me unconditionally. We went through a lot of things and you were always there for me and i will never forget it. I hate how apart we are now. seeing you last nite made me so happy and so sad. I was so excited when you called... i made my boyfriend speed back to whitman to see you, but im sad cuz seeing you made me miss how close we used to be. i know things will never be like that again but i hope someday we can actually be friends again. im so happy that you're finally happy. trust me sweetie you deserve it more then anyone. you are one of the most caring, motherly people that i know and nmw happens you'll be my babi and im always here for you... i babi promise.
sophomore year Dedaface my love my twin. you are probably the best friend ive ever had and ever will have. we were so alike and so opposite it was crazy, we just understood each other... we didnt even need complete sentences lol. You came into my life when i needed you most and you stayed through all the drama and bullshit and you saved my life. i love you more then words can describe i hate how we're not close anymore... we were like sisters and it just faded. but always know that without you i would not have survived the Jim Era. you made me realize that i didnt need him and nmw the advice that you gave me was... you were always right. i hope someday we'll be close again... no i know we will... we're twins and twins cant separate, its unnatural.just know that i love you so much and i always will. no matter how awkwardd things may get between us... never forget how close we were and that im always here... you sat and listened to me cry for many hours, anytime anyplace that you need someone to cry to... please call me... i would love to help you even half as much as you helped me. thank you for everything ill never forget it<3
junior year (this year) Mark baby i am so in love with you. Ive never had someone treat me as good as you do. its amazing. i never would have thought i would find someone to love me the way you do. when you say your gona do something.. i kno you will do. i dont have to sit by the phones waitin for you to call because you do when you say you will. you are the only guy that i have ever been able to be myself around. i love you so much and i really cant see myself without you. its been a perfect 5 months baby and i cant wait to be wit you forever<3
freshman year Carressa... I would NOT have made it without you, thats a fact. You are the reason i started keeping a notebook, something i still do. You were the first person to love me unconditionally. We went through a lot of things and you were always there for me and i will never forget it. I hate how apart we are now. seeing you last nite made me so happy and so sad. I was so excited when you called... i made my boyfriend speed back to whitman to see you, but im sad cuz seeing you made me miss how close we used to be. i know things will never be like that again but i hope someday we can actually be friends again. im so happy that you're finally happy. trust me sweetie you deserve it more then anyone. you are one of the most caring, motherly people that i know and nmw happens you'll be my babi and im always here for you... i babi promise.
sophomore year Dedaface my love my twin. you are probably the best friend ive ever had and ever will have. we were so alike and so opposite it was crazy, we just understood each other... we didnt even need complete sentences lol. You came into my life when i needed you most and you stayed through all the drama and bullshit and you saved my life. i love you more then words can describe i hate how we're not close anymore... we were like sisters and it just faded. but always know that without you i would not have survived the Jim Era. you made me realize that i didnt need him and nmw the advice that you gave me was... you were always right. i hope someday we'll be close again... no i know we will... we're twins and twins cant separate, its unnatural.just know that i love you so much and i always will. no matter how awkwardd things may get between us... never forget how close we were and that im always here... you sat and listened to me cry for many hours, anytime anyplace that you need someone to cry to... please call me... i would love to help you even half as much as you helped me. thank you for everything ill never forget it<3
junior year (this year) Mark baby i am so in love with you. Ive never had someone treat me as good as you do. its amazing. i never would have thought i would find someone to love me the way you do. when you say your gona do something.. i kno you will do. i dont have to sit by the phones waitin for you to call because you do when you say you will. you are the only guy that i have ever been able to be myself around. i love you so much and i really cant see myself without you. its been a perfect 5 months baby and i cant wait to be wit you forever<3