rant
I don't know what this feeling is. But, all of a sudden I feel so down. I have been thinking about a lot of things today that I haven't thought about in a long time. I see people and old memories come back, that I don't want to remember, or even think about. I pushed them away, so why are they coming back now? Maybe it's just because im stressed out from school, and getting money, ect.
But lately, I don't know what i'm supposed to keep secret in my own house. I shouldn't have to worry about everything I say, hoping that I don't spill the beans about something Bill shouldn't know.
And no, I don't really feel like going to two sweethearts. One will be plenty. But the thing is, I don't really want to ever be around her again. But, I don't want to force you to come to mine, if you don't want to. Actually I never ever want to see her or even hear her name again. ashaskjahskjh
Pluss I will get around $30 from orientaion, and then I wont work for two weeks. That's not even enough money for the ticket. And not enough time to get more money. And then I will still have to pay for dinner and a corsage. I know you'll help but I won't let you. And what is this thing with my mom and thinking the guy should pay for everything? It's not the 90's anymore. I honestly don't think it's fair making the guy pay for everything. She says "Well he's dating you, he should pay" Yeah, but I"M dating HIM too.
Whatever.
That was my rant for the week.