New year, new start, new life!
well the hellish 2005 is over! now i just sit here and pray that 2006 is going to be a lot better than last year. so here's just an update since i said i'd write in this more.
so i am still hung up on bobby. i dunno why. usually after this amount of time i can usually get over the guy. not him, not yet. although the time is coming close. i'm tired of feeling like i have to pull teeth to see or talk to him. i'm tired of trying to make us happen again only for him to act like he has to push back his busy schedule to fit me in. so as i told him the other night, i'm tired of it...i cant keep doing it. it's not fair and i shouldnt have to.
made up with a couple of people for actions made & taken during 2005. feels good. hate having people on my hate list, some you just cant help though.
also had a nice (5 hour long) conversation with dave, my ex. we sorted through a lot that should have been 2 yrs ago. unfortunately it took this long to do so. at the end of our conversation i felt good, but sad.i do miss him and obviously the feelings i thought were gone arent. he left bright and early this morning for germany and then from there he goes to iraq. he wont be home until july again. i dont want him to go. i know far too many people over there as is. but oh well. well see...he got my email and promised to keep in touch so that in july when he's home again we can hang out.
well that's about all for now. just glad 2006 is starting off so well!
so i am still hung up on bobby. i dunno why. usually after this amount of time i can usually get over the guy. not him, not yet. although the time is coming close. i'm tired of feeling like i have to pull teeth to see or talk to him. i'm tired of trying to make us happen again only for him to act like he has to push back his busy schedule to fit me in. so as i told him the other night, i'm tired of it...i cant keep doing it. it's not fair and i shouldnt have to.
made up with a couple of people for actions made & taken during 2005. feels good. hate having people on my hate list, some you just cant help though.
also had a nice (5 hour long) conversation with dave, my ex. we sorted through a lot that should have been 2 yrs ago. unfortunately it took this long to do so. at the end of our conversation i felt good, but sad.i do miss him and obviously the feelings i thought were gone arent. he left bright and early this morning for germany and then from there he goes to iraq. he wont be home until july again. i dont want him to go. i know far too many people over there as is. but oh well. well see...he got my email and promised to keep in touch so that in july when he's home again we can hang out.
well that's about all for now. just glad 2006 is starting off so well!