Havent been around much lately
Wow I'm actually gonna write something tonight. Let's see so much has happened since I last updated I'll just save the Bull Shit and get to the good stuff.
Found out recently the guy I am seriously crushing on has moved on without me, now that he doesn't have school anymore he's dating again now and part of me is happy for him because he's a great guy and deserves to be happy and another part of me I guess you could say is jealous because I wanted to be with him and I'm not really a jealous person unless I really truly care about someone and I totally understand where he's coming from he lives 2 1/2 hours from me and it's hard for both of us especially now that I have Hunter and I kinda already blew my chance with him when he lived closer to me, ya see he and I were friends with benefits at the time and I already cared about him but I didn't know if he felt the same way about me and I didn't want to ask because I was afraid of rejection and if by chance he didn't feel the same about me then I was putting my feelings on the line and putting myself out there and I've been hurt way too much in the past by other people so I kept my mouth shut and never really asked him how me felt about me. Then I met someone who I thought was a pretty stand up guy and actually saw all my bad luck changing so I began dating him and then the other guy who I still cared about ended up getting a job offer down by Milwaukee, he was living in Oshkosh at the time when I lived in Kaukauna so he took that and moved back home to save himself some extra money, well the guy I decided to leave him for turned out to be nothing like I expected him to be he started treating me like shit we were getting in all sorts of fights all the time he even accused my of sleeping with my room mate's boyfriend! which I would never ever do. The last straw was when he cheated on me the day after my 21st B-day and the sad part was it was in my own god damn house and slept with another chic on the couch while I was upstairs, that was September and then in November I found out that I was 3 months pregnant with his kid and now he totally denies my son because he thinks I was cheating on him when in reality he was the one cheating on me the entire 5 months we dated, trust me if I would've known I was gonna get pregnant of course I would've cheated my son deserves so much better in a father then what he's stuck with.
Umm let's see over 4th of July weekend I got stung by a yellow jacket wasp and today I went the doctor because it's all itchy and swellon turns out it's all infected and I'm now on antibiotics, this cream thats supposed to help the redness go away and I gotta back tomorrow and get some anti-itch stuff that they didn't have in today, it was so bad this weekend that honestly I was ready to cut my own day leg off I was in so much pain.
Also this weekend I went rafting and it was susposed to be me and my best friend and a whole big group, like out of 21 people there would be 6 adults and the rest would range in the ages of 17-22. Well 2 of the adults didn't show and the day before we're supposed to leave my best friend calls and tells she can't make it she just found out that she has to work and can't get out of it. So I go by myself on Saturday and THANK GOD I did! first of all there's only like 3 girls total and I'm the only chic in the group with all the 21 year olds can we say JACKPOT I was center of attention among 4 guys and we all got to drink all day long double bonus well I quit around 2-3 pm remind you we've been drinking since like 9 am and good thing I stopped because the 4 guys were trashed so I was the only one able to drive although if we wouldnt have gotten back when we did they would've been gone because they were already in the car when we pulled up and I quick got out and told the driver I was driving he didn't argue thank god, so it was me, the owner of the car and 2 other guys in the car we had a blast so we finally got home around 10pm and it's an hour drive back to Green Bay shot off some fireworks had the cops come and confiscated them because I guess some neighbors were complaining...BOO there went our entertainment I then started drinking again once I got the other guys back and out of 7 smirnoffs I had only 2 left by 1 am and I don't think I really started drinking until around 11 pm all the guys were ready to go pass out and I was still wanted to keep going but then again the guys didnt take a break and stop drinking like I did, so that had a lot to do with it. And if by chance you're wondering if anything happend with any of those guys and me being the only girl you'll have to email me because I'm not going to say on here :-X
God I should update more often so they're not this freaking long, not like anyone will read it anyway...Jeeze you people should remind me to update more often!
Found out recently the guy I am seriously crushing on has moved on without me, now that he doesn't have school anymore he's dating again now and part of me is happy for him because he's a great guy and deserves to be happy and another part of me I guess you could say is jealous because I wanted to be with him and I'm not really a jealous person unless I really truly care about someone and I totally understand where he's coming from he lives 2 1/2 hours from me and it's hard for both of us especially now that I have Hunter and I kinda already blew my chance with him when he lived closer to me, ya see he and I were friends with benefits at the time and I already cared about him but I didn't know if he felt the same way about me and I didn't want to ask because I was afraid of rejection and if by chance he didn't feel the same about me then I was putting my feelings on the line and putting myself out there and I've been hurt way too much in the past by other people so I kept my mouth shut and never really asked him how me felt about me. Then I met someone who I thought was a pretty stand up guy and actually saw all my bad luck changing so I began dating him and then the other guy who I still cared about ended up getting a job offer down by Milwaukee, he was living in Oshkosh at the time when I lived in Kaukauna so he took that and moved back home to save himself some extra money, well the guy I decided to leave him for turned out to be nothing like I expected him to be he started treating me like shit we were getting in all sorts of fights all the time he even accused my of sleeping with my room mate's boyfriend! which I would never ever do. The last straw was when he cheated on me the day after my 21st B-day and the sad part was it was in my own god damn house and slept with another chic on the couch while I was upstairs, that was September and then in November I found out that I was 3 months pregnant with his kid and now he totally denies my son because he thinks I was cheating on him when in reality he was the one cheating on me the entire 5 months we dated, trust me if I would've known I was gonna get pregnant of course I would've cheated my son deserves so much better in a father then what he's stuck with.
Umm let's see over 4th of July weekend I got stung by a yellow jacket wasp and today I went the doctor because it's all itchy and swellon turns out it's all infected and I'm now on antibiotics, this cream thats supposed to help the redness go away and I gotta back tomorrow and get some anti-itch stuff that they didn't have in today, it was so bad this weekend that honestly I was ready to cut my own day leg off I was in so much pain.
Also this weekend I went rafting and it was susposed to be me and my best friend and a whole big group, like out of 21 people there would be 6 adults and the rest would range in the ages of 17-22. Well 2 of the adults didn't show and the day before we're supposed to leave my best friend calls and tells she can't make it she just found out that she has to work and can't get out of it. So I go by myself on Saturday and THANK GOD I did! first of all there's only like 3 girls total and I'm the only chic in the group with all the 21 year olds can we say JACKPOT I was center of attention among 4 guys and we all got to drink all day long double bonus well I quit around 2-3 pm remind you we've been drinking since like 9 am and good thing I stopped because the 4 guys were trashed so I was the only one able to drive although if we wouldnt have gotten back when we did they would've been gone because they were already in the car when we pulled up and I quick got out and told the driver I was driving he didn't argue thank god, so it was me, the owner of the car and 2 other guys in the car we had a blast so we finally got home around 10pm and it's an hour drive back to Green Bay shot off some fireworks had the cops come and confiscated them because I guess some neighbors were complaining...BOO there went our entertainment I then started drinking again once I got the other guys back and out of 7 smirnoffs I had only 2 left by 1 am and I don't think I really started drinking until around 11 pm all the guys were ready to go pass out and I was still wanted to keep going but then again the guys didnt take a break and stop drinking like I did, so that had a lot to do with it. And if by chance you're wondering if anything happend with any of those guys and me being the only girl you'll have to email me because I'm not going to say on here :-X
God I should update more often so they're not this freaking long, not like anyone will read it anyway...Jeeze you people should remind me to update more often!