ehhh,,..
i just realized today how much stevie hurt me.. ]=..im not like last night..cause last night,..i was calmm..when he told me everything...it seemed like not a big deal to me..but now...im just sooo fucking mad..i wanna punch himm..i wanna stab himm..i wanna kill himm..but..but i cant...
hes an idiot..hes ignorant..hes selfish..hes numb..hes a cheater..he doesnt care about my feelings...he makes me mad...he made me cry...he hurt me...
but i still dont get how i still love him so much..am i really that blind? is he really worth it? does he really love me?
i dont know mann..i need thi think about alot of stuff..i need to make alot of decision..and i know i need to make the right choice...my bestfriends right..i need alot of time to think about stuff before i make a decision..
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lol..so different story?
i went to counseling today it was horrible..i actually cried cause of my madre...aghh..i think all the things inside me, i thought that i just have to let it all out you know? i cant just keep it inside forever and ever..hehe..
yeah...but we talked about me moving back to my house..i really want to move back to my houseeee...no fucking joke.