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Where do you go when you look into the mirror and despise the person you see? A person you barely recognize, someone you look at and become filled with rage. You clench your teeth and squeeze tight fists as a reflex. You have an internal fight and scream and punch and kill, kill, kill, but in the end, she's still standing. Looking at you with dull, blank eyes. Eyes that scream with secrets too sorrid to tell. Your head burns with the familiar feeling and you fight the tears. Swallow it. Swallow it away until you can't feel anymore.
Who do you turn to when you ask and ask, over and over to please make it better and promises are made, but never kept. You begin to turn to marble. A pure white figure that catches the sun, something you can't look directly at, but have vague memories of after it's gone.
It all fades away into the background. There is nothing left of that reflection. Just a shell of what used to be there. A skeleton that's been eaten away by a deep and cold pain that settles in the joints. All emotion beaten out, just a shadow. There to appease, and listen, and nod, when necessary.
Nothing more, nothing less. Just a shadow.
Who do you turn to when you ask and ask, over and over to please make it better and promises are made, but never kept. You begin to turn to marble. A pure white figure that catches the sun, something you can't look directly at, but have vague memories of after it's gone.
It all fades away into the background. There is nothing left of that reflection. Just a shell of what used to be there. A skeleton that's been eaten away by a deep and cold pain that settles in the joints. All emotion beaten out, just a shadow. There to appease, and listen, and nod, when necessary.
Nothing more, nothing less. Just a shadow.