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I really need to meet new people. I need to get out of the house and meet new people. Or so I think. Lately I've been wondering if I'm really up for it. I don't really feel like I'm at my best. I'm at like 85% Casey. I don't really know that I should be trying to meet people right now. I'm okay with it. I guess I'm getting back to normal. It's kind of calming. I'd like to do more. I'd like to get out more often. It's just okay if I'm not meeting people. Maybe I just don't feel up for it.
Things with Chesney are things with Chesney. I have very complex feelings about her. On the one hand I'm disappointed and a little bit hurt by everything. I can't stand that a relationship I had five years ago is affecting one I was happy in today. But people rarely surprise me and like a lot of things I knew this was coming. But it's been a few weeks and I've gotten perspective. Sometimes it makes me sad. Most of the time I'm fine. I know she needs me. I don't know really know how long she'll have me there. Especially since she'll never hold on to me. Maybe she'll surprise me, but people rarely do.
I got a letter from Kiersten a few weeks ago and I've been writing back and forth ever since. I miss that girl. This week she sent me a really, really sweet letter, along with pictures and train stubs. I sent her back pictures, a letter, a mix cd, a PATCO slip from the world series parade, and an American Splendor postcard the next day. She has this uncanny ability to make me smile, even when she's in London.
The Office nearly made me cry this week. Knowing that next week's It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia is the last of the season might make me cry. I had to change a flat tire this week and got called in for a job interview. I was called back a few hours later and told I didn't have one. Lame.
Things with Chesney are things with Chesney. I have very complex feelings about her. On the one hand I'm disappointed and a little bit hurt by everything. I can't stand that a relationship I had five years ago is affecting one I was happy in today. But people rarely surprise me and like a lot of things I knew this was coming. But it's been a few weeks and I've gotten perspective. Sometimes it makes me sad. Most of the time I'm fine. I know she needs me. I don't know really know how long she'll have me there. Especially since she'll never hold on to me. Maybe she'll surprise me, but people rarely do.
I got a letter from Kiersten a few weeks ago and I've been writing back and forth ever since. I miss that girl. This week she sent me a really, really sweet letter, along with pictures and train stubs. I sent her back pictures, a letter, a mix cd, a PATCO slip from the world series parade, and an American Splendor postcard the next day. She has this uncanny ability to make me smile, even when she's in London.
The Office nearly made me cry this week. Knowing that next week's It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia is the last of the season might make me cry. I had to change a flat tire this week and got called in for a job interview. I was called back a few hours later and told I didn't have one. Lame.