new year, new resolution!
Alright! I know I've made this promise a million times before... but I am going to dedicate myself to writing more. I was going to start another blog and work on that, but really, this is the only one I've kept up. And I haven't really kept up in it either. It is a little odd now that none of my RL friends go on here anymore, so this will end up being more like a diary than anything else I guess... but I could make new virtual friends I guess... anyone want to join my resolution? lol.
The reason I am choosing to write in here more is mostly for my creative side. Going back to my parents house over the holidays reminded me that I used to be a pretty creative kid. I did music, art, literature (I know, right? I almost forgot I was an editor in the HS lit. mag. for 2+ years!). I'm finding recently too that I miss poetry and lyrics. I used to search the internet endlessly for quotes and lyrics that fit things I felt, write my own lyrics and poetry that no one would ever see. Now, I check the bank account three times a day and stare at the calender at work and for my personal life endlessly.
I feel like my practical and organizing side (which is good and I love) it a little overpowered at the moment. I want to get back into my emotional and creative side a little more. Plus, I will need an outlet for these I'm sure in the future (with a little one on the way)! There will be plenty of time for practicality and worrying.
Also, my Moonday spiritual practice did NOT get off the ground. Apparently, with working full time and having class on Monday nights last semester, I was left with no energy for my spirit except to sleep. Plus getting pregnant and being alone for 7 weeks to figure it out on my own while Brandon was in training did not help the exhaustion. I still really want to look into wicca and more natural beliefs and mix it up with what I've got already. I'm torn here too, because it might help if I had others to talk to, but on the other hand its so intensely personal for me I don't really like to share. (Blogging on the other hand, is different, I'm writing for myself but leaving it open for others to find. Its more passive I guess, don't ask me how my brain works.)
The reason I am choosing to write in here more is mostly for my creative side. Going back to my parents house over the holidays reminded me that I used to be a pretty creative kid. I did music, art, literature (I know, right? I almost forgot I was an editor in the HS lit. mag. for 2+ years!). I'm finding recently too that I miss poetry and lyrics. I used to search the internet endlessly for quotes and lyrics that fit things I felt, write my own lyrics and poetry that no one would ever see. Now, I check the bank account three times a day and stare at the calender at work and for my personal life endlessly.
I feel like my practical and organizing side (which is good and I love) it a little overpowered at the moment. I want to get back into my emotional and creative side a little more. Plus, I will need an outlet for these I'm sure in the future (with a little one on the way)! There will be plenty of time for practicality and worrying.
Also, my Moonday spiritual practice did NOT get off the ground. Apparently, with working full time and having class on Monday nights last semester, I was left with no energy for my spirit except to sleep. Plus getting pregnant and being alone for 7 weeks to figure it out on my own while Brandon was in training did not help the exhaustion. I still really want to look into wicca and more natural beliefs and mix it up with what I've got already. I'm torn here too, because it might help if I had others to talk to, but on the other hand its so intensely personal for me I don't really like to share. (Blogging on the other hand, is different, I'm writing for myself but leaving it open for others to find. Its more passive I guess, don't ask me how my brain works.)