memories
Alright, well I had a random and sad dream the other day about guard.
It was nice, I went to pratice, and there was everyone basically from seinor year. Some girls were praticing, but I was just watching. This part went on for a while, and I could probably describe it to you, but there is really no point. At the end of pratice and after the show, I was talking to Helen and Alyssa (coaches, for those of you who werent in it with me) and I started crying. I was saying that I will never be able to do guard ever again and that made me very sad. I sobbed for a good part of the dream, talking about how much I miss it and all. Then I woke up really depressed, because everything I dreamed is true. I will probably never do anything related to guard ever in my life. And I really do miss it *tear* Still to this day, anything thats between 2 and 6 ft that is in my hands I end up spinning, twirling or tossing (including children, hehe, but they like it).
But see, the question is, why the hell am I dreaming about this NOW? I haven´t done it in 3 years, and I am living in fucking Argentina.... why now? I have plenty of other things to dream about.
Oh well I guess, what am I gunna do about it? I miss guard.
It was nice, I went to pratice, and there was everyone basically from seinor year. Some girls were praticing, but I was just watching. This part went on for a while, and I could probably describe it to you, but there is really no point. At the end of pratice and after the show, I was talking to Helen and Alyssa (coaches, for those of you who werent in it with me) and I started crying. I was saying that I will never be able to do guard ever again and that made me very sad. I sobbed for a good part of the dream, talking about how much I miss it and all. Then I woke up really depressed, because everything I dreamed is true. I will probably never do anything related to guard ever in my life. And I really do miss it *tear* Still to this day, anything thats between 2 and 6 ft that is in my hands I end up spinning, twirling or tossing (including children, hehe, but they like it).
But see, the question is, why the hell am I dreaming about this NOW? I haven´t done it in 3 years, and I am living in fucking Argentina.... why now? I have plenty of other things to dream about.
Oh well I guess, what am I gunna do about it? I miss guard.