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I got home at about 11pm is's Saturday Night. I feel ok I guess.I haven't got anyone to talk to so I decided on updating.It's 1.13 am and I am not tired at all.This whole job thing is cool but I am all screwed up with sleeping.
Anyway.I have been thinking alot lately.I used to be sad and lonely.Not anymore, now I think friends is enough,I am enough.I was looking for a guy to make me happy but I wasn't happy with myself. I have decided to wait ya know.For my husband before I tell all my secrets become so close and trusting.I did that before and it was a big mistake. I used to not believe in love, I thought all guys are jerks. Who knows really.All I can say is I am not as trusting as I once was and that is good. Right Now I am fine without dating. I think finally i have found peace in myself. I am ok with how I look and act.
There are a million things I need to improve about myself,but I don't hate myself like i once did.I found peace and I wouldn't trade Michelle and Tarah for the world.I would much rather have two very close friends than 15 casual ones. I love Michelle so much I wish I could be half the girl she is.
Tarah is an awesome friend who cracks me up everytime I see her.I haven't been the best friend to either one,but I am working on it.
Anyway.I have been thinking alot lately.I used to be sad and lonely.Not anymore, now I think friends is enough,I am enough.I was looking for a guy to make me happy but I wasn't happy with myself. I have decided to wait ya know.For my husband before I tell all my secrets become so close and trusting.I did that before and it was a big mistake. I used to not believe in love, I thought all guys are jerks. Who knows really.All I can say is I am not as trusting as I once was and that is good. Right Now I am fine without dating. I think finally i have found peace in myself. I am ok with how I look and act.
There are a million things I need to improve about myself,but I don't hate myself like i once did.I found peace and I wouldn't trade Michelle and Tarah for the world.I would much rather have two very close friends than 15 casual ones. I love Michelle so much I wish I could be half the girl she is.
Tarah is an awesome friend who cracks me up everytime I see her.I haven't been the best friend to either one,but I am working on it.