so glad i'm all alone

[diabolical_kiss]

i fight for something that's not guaranteed
i fight for something my heart needs
i will never give up on my own terms
i will never accept that i fucked my world up
i hate myself everyday
i want to gash my wrists..
i want to disappear
i want to act like i never fell in love
i fucking need him
without him i am incomplete
he doesn't see it
but i will show him that
in due time
he will understand
i fucking wish i could have him
or die...