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Ever since thursday
I don't even know where to start... basically it just bothers me everyday as if the only way is to actually assult them or something. I mean, I don't really see why I should (or how I could)forget about this anyway. The more I try to look at this at different angles, the more I get aggravated and angry. To be honest, I do regret promising her to just stop here.
They had their fun, and I really think it's about time they pay for all this. Like I said, the more I look at these from different angles, the more they aggravate me. The weird thing is, there is a "jump" before and after that thursday, as if I put everything aside but once I get angry and let it out, I can't stop. I have to go all the way or else this will bother me forever.
Or maybe it's just I tasted how sweet revenge and violence is. Maybe? In fact, it does feel nice.
Maybe it's best for me to actually do something to take off some heat ( like what I am doing now). But I think I have already proved that it wouldn't work.
I would really hate to break my promise to her.
I have been keeping myself out of trouble for too long. I have been nice for too long. I have been putting aside my anger for too long. Now it's all coming back and haunt... me?
I should have just slammed the bottles at that motherfucker who was crying and shit. Then maybe I wouldn't have fought with Sam.
I WANT TO FUCK UP THEIR LIVES ALL THE WAY UP THEIR FUCKING ASS AND I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE FUCK THE POLICEFUCKSCHOOL THEY SHOULD HAVE KEPT THEIR HANDS TO THEMSELVES AND KNOW BETTER THAN MESSING AROUND WITH HER AND NOW THEY ARE GOING TO FUCKING GET IT AND REGRET EVERYTHING THEY DID AND LIVE ON REMEMBERING ME SAM EVERYTHING THEY DID AND EVERYTHING I DID
MOTHERFUCKERS FUCKHEADSFUCKING DICKHEADS