My life...and it's misery!
For some reason or another my life seems to be the epitemy of shitholes! Monday...me, Chris, Chip, Rhiannon all load up and head on over to Lexington to go to the ShineDown/Soil concert that I had been waiting on for like 2 weeks...I was really really excited...so we get over there hop out of the car...and damnit! They cancelled...due to unforseen circumstances! OMG
So therefore, we had to find something to do! So we go use the bathroom, and I fill my car up with gas, and we decide to get drunk off our asses! So we go the liquor store and spend $80. Then we go to Wal-Mart and spend like $20 more...
So we get to Chip and Rhiannon's and she starts mixin drinks...Chip decides he wants to play 3 man...and we call some friends and they come over and drink with us...by the time the other people got there I was already blitzed!
Before the night was over I had like 4 Fuzzy Navels, 1 Sex on the Beach, 1 Screwdriver, 1 shots of Whiskey, 1 Toasted Almond, and...1 Long Island Ice Tea...or well who knows...I sure don't! All I know is I was fuckin drunk off my ass...couldn't hardly walk...I was told that I threw my shoes at Chris (the b/f) when he came to pick my drunk ass up! I couldn't climb in the truck...we took Chris Morgan back to his car, and I decided that I wanted to see Stacia...so Chris (the b/f) had to call her and tell her to come out and see me cause I was too drunk to go in...Damnit! It would have been funny as hell...to see my ass stumblin up in EDS! HE HE HE
Finally made it home..it felt like it took about 3 hours for me to get home that night...I swear! Then I passed the fuck out!
The next morning I got up and had to go and pick my car up from Chip's house cause my drunk ass couldn't drive the night before...and I head over to EDS to see how my friends who had to work were doing! I stopped in the parking lot to put on my makeup cause I had left it all in my car...and Chris Morgan sends me a text to see what I was doing! I asked him where he was and he replied with...Behind you! I turn around and there he is! He's driving his dad's Convertible Corvette...so we came in and checked on our friends and then took off together for a ride...it was fun times! I loved the feel of the wind in my hair and just being care free for a while...OMG I wish I could do it again!
Anyway...So nothing really happened on Wednesday...I had to work big f'n deal! Thursday on the other hand...Someone calls Chris tells him that I'm cheating on him with Chris M. says that Monday night at our drunken party that I was all over him...blah blah blah! so we spent all day Thursday fighting...and I talked to Chris M. about 500 times that day cause I was so mad I couldn't see straight...finally we got everything worked out...I call Stacy (Justin's girlfriend) and say..hey what the fuck..the rest of the truth spills out, and I call Chris bitch at him for a minute or two..and then it's all good again!
Friday...I got up around 12 cleaned the house a bit...did some laundry...laid down on the couch and took a nap...Chris called woke me up...reminded me that I had to go to town...so I went to EDS picked up my check threw it in the bank...talked to Courtney for a min. or two...got kicked out of EDS due to lack of clothes...LOL
Then...unfortunatly...I got bored...so what do I decide to do? I run to Josh's house cause I have nothing better to do with my life...other than get my heart broke by some guy that I was/am in love with, that seems to enjoy my pain...
First we're sitting there talking...it's all good some boredom conversation going on...while he gets ready for work...then the subject about me and Chris getting married comes up...and all hell breaks loose then! He says that I am a fool, that the only reason that I am with Chris is so that he will pay for my car...apparently this person that I thought knew me so well would know that I am not that shallow...I'm not with Chris to get anything...I love Chris...I'm not really ready to get married yet, but what the hell ever...If I do, I do! The plan is to get married at the end of May...but who knows if that will happen on time, or at all! Right now I have a lot of shit going on in my life and I can't take it all coming at me at once! He says that I only stay with Chris for my car, when I could have left and made a person out of myself...basically sayin...that I could have been with him...yes he's right! I should have...and I will hurt every single day of my life because I am not with Josh! And I don't know the "What If" of our relationship...but that's something that you learn to deal with in time...
Anyway...so we're sitting there a little longer and I'm antsy and ready to leave...and he starts looking like he's ready to leave...so I ask him if he's about ready..he says yea...in just a minute...so I sit there on the couch and then I look at him and I said jokingly...You gonna kick me out huh? He gives me the awfullest look you ever saw in your life and says YES!
So I jump off the couch...say "I can take a hint" and slam the door behind me...thinking that he might come out and say soemthing as I was walking down the stairs...but NO!
So by then I am balling my eyes out in desperation of a friend...I calm down go pick up Chris' lunch take it to him...go home...and proceed to cry for extended amounts of time! Log on my computer in hopes that Chris M. would be there cause I was falling apart...he wasn't...I knew that before I ever logged on cause he was with his g/f all day yesterday...anyway...I had noone...finally got to talk to Courtney for a while...that helped...
Then Todd...the stalker EX gets online...and starts a bunch of bullshit with me...I can't take this shit anymore...he makes me feel like shit...cause I keep tryin to be best friends with him like we were before but it can't be that way...cause he's all about "I love you, and I can't be friends with someone that I have these feelings for...shit!" Anyway...I just need some relaxing..and maybe things will get better...I hope so cause I'm going on out of my f'n mind...someone save me before I go Nuckin Futs!
So therefore, we had to find something to do! So we go use the bathroom, and I fill my car up with gas, and we decide to get drunk off our asses! So we go the liquor store and spend $80. Then we go to Wal-Mart and spend like $20 more...
So we get to Chip and Rhiannon's and she starts mixin drinks...Chip decides he wants to play 3 man...and we call some friends and they come over and drink with us...by the time the other people got there I was already blitzed!
Before the night was over I had like 4 Fuzzy Navels, 1 Sex on the Beach, 1 Screwdriver, 1 shots of Whiskey, 1 Toasted Almond, and...1 Long Island Ice Tea...or well who knows...I sure don't! All I know is I was fuckin drunk off my ass...couldn't hardly walk...I was told that I threw my shoes at Chris (the b/f) when he came to pick my drunk ass up! I couldn't climb in the truck...we took Chris Morgan back to his car, and I decided that I wanted to see Stacia...so Chris (the b/f) had to call her and tell her to come out and see me cause I was too drunk to go in...Damnit! It would have been funny as hell...to see my ass stumblin up in EDS! HE HE HE
Finally made it home..it felt like it took about 3 hours for me to get home that night...I swear! Then I passed the fuck out!
The next morning I got up and had to go and pick my car up from Chip's house cause my drunk ass couldn't drive the night before...and I head over to EDS to see how my friends who had to work were doing! I stopped in the parking lot to put on my makeup cause I had left it all in my car...and Chris Morgan sends me a text to see what I was doing! I asked him where he was and he replied with...Behind you! I turn around and there he is! He's driving his dad's Convertible Corvette...so we came in and checked on our friends and then took off together for a ride...it was fun times! I loved the feel of the wind in my hair and just being care free for a while...OMG I wish I could do it again!
Anyway...So nothing really happened on Wednesday...I had to work big f'n deal! Thursday on the other hand...Someone calls Chris tells him that I'm cheating on him with Chris M. says that Monday night at our drunken party that I was all over him...blah blah blah! so we spent all day Thursday fighting...and I talked to Chris M. about 500 times that day cause I was so mad I couldn't see straight...finally we got everything worked out...I call Stacy (Justin's girlfriend) and say..hey what the fuck..the rest of the truth spills out, and I call Chris bitch at him for a minute or two..and then it's all good again!
Friday...I got up around 12 cleaned the house a bit...did some laundry...laid down on the couch and took a nap...Chris called woke me up...reminded me that I had to go to town...so I went to EDS picked up my check threw it in the bank...talked to Courtney for a min. or two...got kicked out of EDS due to lack of clothes...LOL
Then...unfortunatly...I got bored...so what do I decide to do? I run to Josh's house cause I have nothing better to do with my life...other than get my heart broke by some guy that I was/am in love with, that seems to enjoy my pain...
First we're sitting there talking...it's all good some boredom conversation going on...while he gets ready for work...then the subject about me and Chris getting married comes up...and all hell breaks loose then! He says that I am a fool, that the only reason that I am with Chris is so that he will pay for my car...apparently this person that I thought knew me so well would know that I am not that shallow...I'm not with Chris to get anything...I love Chris...I'm not really ready to get married yet, but what the hell ever...If I do, I do! The plan is to get married at the end of May...but who knows if that will happen on time, or at all! Right now I have a lot of shit going on in my life and I can't take it all coming at me at once! He says that I only stay with Chris for my car, when I could have left and made a person out of myself...basically sayin...that I could have been with him...yes he's right! I should have...and I will hurt every single day of my life because I am not with Josh! And I don't know the "What If" of our relationship...but that's something that you learn to deal with in time...
Anyway...so we're sitting there a little longer and I'm antsy and ready to leave...and he starts looking like he's ready to leave...so I ask him if he's about ready..he says yea...in just a minute...so I sit there on the couch and then I look at him and I said jokingly...You gonna kick me out huh? He gives me the awfullest look you ever saw in your life and says YES!
So I jump off the couch...say "I can take a hint" and slam the door behind me...thinking that he might come out and say soemthing as I was walking down the stairs...but NO!
So by then I am balling my eyes out in desperation of a friend...I calm down go pick up Chris' lunch take it to him...go home...and proceed to cry for extended amounts of time! Log on my computer in hopes that Chris M. would be there cause I was falling apart...he wasn't...I knew that before I ever logged on cause he was with his g/f all day yesterday...anyway...I had noone...finally got to talk to Courtney for a while...that helped...
Then Todd...the stalker EX gets online...and starts a bunch of bullshit with me...I can't take this shit anymore...he makes me feel like shit...cause I keep tryin to be best friends with him like we were before but it can't be that way...cause he's all about "I love you, and I can't be friends with someone that I have these feelings for...shit!" Anyway...I just need some relaxing..and maybe things will get better...I hope so cause I'm going on out of my f'n mind...someone save me before I go Nuckin Futs!