this show does not deserve the amount of words i am writing right now

[diableriewillow]

For all my posturing that I do not care about anything nonDair related, I do still have feelings and a bit of caring for nonDair aspects of this shit show (this was what I was hoping to avoid with avoiding the show as a whole until it was done and then going back to watch all of the glorious Dair but now that I am convinced that Dair are endgame I

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[diableriewillow]

yep you're dead on about the problems with B/S (bs. heh. hahahahaaa. okay) and their friendship. I want the best for them but they continually act the worst. Blair's my girl always but she also has had her share of terrible friend moments, but I think that the difference between her and Serena is that the show is better at getting at Blair's POV so we know that a lot of what drives her bad behavior is based on her own deep insecurities and fears. It's harder to sympathize with Serena because the writers have been fucking up with her character for years now. Serena didn't start off in this show totally selfish and awful as she has been the last few seasons. she may have been self-centered and oblivious to others but she was still at core a good person. I just hate the way they've written her ever since late s2. It was the whole trying to get her dad's attention thing that started me on my dislike Serena spiral. And then her flaking out on college (this seems to be a peeve of mine which is ironic in light of my own life choices) and just s3 terribleness leading to s4 Serena being even more insufferable, but now she is interesting!

A huge criticism I've had for Serena that's been made explicit in the show is how everything comes easy to her; she doesn't have to work hard to get what she wants, or be successful, or have a bunch of men fall in love with her and this season is about breaking a lot of that and having her get knocked down and not succeed in everything she does. She's the one in Blair's shadow now and she's the one trying to really find her place and having a hard time of it. So it's been interesting to see just WHO is Serena van der Woodsen without all her lucky breaks. I don't know if you'll end up liking her more in the next episodes or despise her more. honestly I am having trouble figuring out that balance of just how much i like her or not myself, but the fact i have conflicted Serena feelings at all is a good thing instead of blind hatred or indifference. As you said, it keeps things interesting and is so different from the usual Serena storyline that it's not really a bad thing. I'm mean but I do get satisfaction in seeing how indifferent Dan is to her. The fact that he isn't still hung up on her makes her desperation more endearing than terrible and also gives her some much needed sympathy that's been missing since s2. maybe s3.

It's all going to come down to the finale episode for me to figure out where I stand with Serena. I am still really uncertain about her character and just what she's going to do and how it goes down is going to determine how I end up feeling about her, present conflicting emotions be damned. Right now I just don't know what's going to happen. I am on a rollercoaster of at-odds Serena feelings that I never asked to be on and I resent the writers for this.

I'm both excited for and dreading next week because the finale's centered around Blair and Serena and it's gonna be so. bad. Or good. but probably bad. bad for their friendship definitely. but prob terrible to watch as well. as was most of the last episode. sigh. just gonna get really smashed for the finale.