OH CRUEL FATE, WHY DO YOU MOCK ME!
Today was the crappiest, most wonderfull day ever......its a weird emotion.
So after school i get this text message that says "I don't know if this is working out" from padon. So i text back saying "what, us?"
-yes
~sadly, i agree. I think we are perfect for eachother though, but the distance thing is killing me. It hurts too much for you not to be with me.
-I really like you Shawn, and i would like to make it work if that is possible. However...if we can't i'm afraid we cannot stay in touch... As i would try to hold on to what we almost had.
~(i dont remember what i said, but i started crying about here, then he said)
-I'm out of school, Call me.
So we talk on the phone for a bit, i'm tearing up, he's all calm. He said he'd be alot more upset after he gets off the phone, we talked about it for a bit. Then hung up and i broke down. I was at work too, so i tried not to show it, but i cried hard. Then i texted to him
~I'm sorry, and i love you
-There is no reason to be sorry
And that was it...We talked about us still being friends and he said it wont work, but i'm willing to still try...i like him so much, i cant just push him out of my life like that forever.
Yah, so that was the horrifically depressing part of my day.
This next part is a bit more happy. Wow...work was just CHOCK full of clashing emotions.
After I talked on the phone w/ padon, and calmed down a bit, this girl i know from theatre came up to the hut. I asked her if she looked at the call board (cause today in tech, Mr. Kruger told me i should fill out an aplication for Stage Manager, so i did. Then he talked to me about it in tech, and he said he'd post Assistant director and stage manager after school) cause i didnt get a chance to cause i had to go immediately to work. She looked at me and said "you got it" and i was like "...got what, crew head for stage door or SM for scapino" and she said "SM!" and i got really excited, so i called some of my theatre friends and told them. I got home like 30 min. ago and found out that Kelsey got AD!!! Thats so cool too.
So yah, a depressing/exciting day....like i said...weird emotion
Love always and forever, maybe today
SHaWN
So after school i get this text message that says "I don't know if this is working out" from padon. So i text back saying "what, us?"
-yes
~sadly, i agree. I think we are perfect for eachother though, but the distance thing is killing me. It hurts too much for you not to be with me.
-I really like you Shawn, and i would like to make it work if that is possible. However...if we can't i'm afraid we cannot stay in touch... As i would try to hold on to what we almost had.
~(i dont remember what i said, but i started crying about here, then he said)
-I'm out of school, Call me.
So we talk on the phone for a bit, i'm tearing up, he's all calm. He said he'd be alot more upset after he gets off the phone, we talked about it for a bit. Then hung up and i broke down. I was at work too, so i tried not to show it, but i cried hard. Then i texted to him
~I'm sorry, and i love you
-There is no reason to be sorry
And that was it...We talked about us still being friends and he said it wont work, but i'm willing to still try...i like him so much, i cant just push him out of my life like that forever.
Yah, so that was the horrifically depressing part of my day.
This next part is a bit more happy. Wow...work was just CHOCK full of clashing emotions.
After I talked on the phone w/ padon, and calmed down a bit, this girl i know from theatre came up to the hut. I asked her if she looked at the call board (cause today in tech, Mr. Kruger told me i should fill out an aplication for Stage Manager, so i did. Then he talked to me about it in tech, and he said he'd post Assistant director and stage manager after school) cause i didnt get a chance to cause i had to go immediately to work. She looked at me and said "you got it" and i was like "...got what, crew head for stage door or SM for scapino" and she said "SM!" and i got really excited, so i called some of my theatre friends and told them. I got home like 30 min. ago and found out that Kelsey got AD!!! Thats so cool too.
So yah, a depressing/exciting day....like i said...weird emotion
Love always and forever, maybe today
SHaWN