Dear "Sam"
You know that feeling when your stomach lurges every time you think about that special someone? It's been a REALLY long time since that has happened and part of me loves it and the other part of me hates the feeling.
Though not many of you know who I am speaking of, I'm sorry. I can't explain right now. It's a long story and I know what you all will say. I can't handle someone else telling me the same thing over and over. On that note, let me rant just a little. I warn you, this is directed to him... Just go with it...maybe you'll catch on.
Why does your smile haunt me so? I love it and I love that I make you smile. Why can I see all the signs? I have been hurt in the past and I was not looking for someone, especially like you. I wasn't looking. I was trying to forget someone else and everyone told me to move on. I told them that I didn't need anything. Then you come along and change all that. You hit me like a ton of bricks. I was so not ready- for someone new and to feel this way. Every time I see you, I fall for you all over again and you aren't helping... especially with that smile of yours. The attention you gave me the other night was flattering... the looks you gave the day after have had me smiling ever since. Everyone tells me that you are interested... at least a little. But I can't let myself get set up for years and years of guessing. Please don't put me through that. I can't take that. My heart can't take it. Please understand where I'm coming from. I can't explain it perfectly. One day I was living my life, just as I planned and then suddenly eveything is different. I can't stop thinking about you. When I see you, I replay it again over and over my mind- your smile, what you say, how you act, the way you give me so much more attention than I deserve. I will tell you this. You have a way of flattery about you. But I have just one question? Am I wrong? Can I let my guard down, even just a little? I need to know. I'm sure I'll miss you when you're gone... and then when I am. I hate this. I feel like time is running out and this all started just a few short days ago. How can so much change so drastically in 11 days? Tell me. Tell me where you see this. I talked to three of your roommates about different things and during all such conversations, I was thinking of you. Do you think of me?
I'm so scared that the way that I feel
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room
I wanna find a hiding place
We used to laugh, we used to hug,
The way that all friends do
But now a smile and a touch of your hand
Just makes me come unglued,
Such a contridiction,
Do I lie or tell the truth,
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you
It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated
I wanna hold you close
I wanna push you away
I wanna make you go
I wanna make you stay
Should I say it
Should I tell you how I feel
Oh I want you to know
But then again I don't
So complicated.
Oh, just when I think I'm under control
I think I've finally got a grip.
Another friend tells me that
My name is always on your lips.
They say I'm more then Just a friend,
They say I must be blind.
I admit that I've seen you watch
But from the corner of your eye
Oh it's so confusing
Yeah I wish you'd just confess..
But think of what I"d be losing
If your answer wasn't yes.
It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated
I wanna hold you close
I wanna push you away
I wanna make you go
I wanna make you stay
Should I say it
Should I tell you how I feel
Oh I want you to know
But then again I don't
So complicated.
I hate it, cuz I've waited
So long for someone like you.
Oh what do I do?
Though not many of you know who I am speaking of, I'm sorry. I can't explain right now. It's a long story and I know what you all will say. I can't handle someone else telling me the same thing over and over. On that note, let me rant just a little. I warn you, this is directed to him... Just go with it...maybe you'll catch on.
Why does your smile haunt me so? I love it and I love that I make you smile. Why can I see all the signs? I have been hurt in the past and I was not looking for someone, especially like you. I wasn't looking. I was trying to forget someone else and everyone told me to move on. I told them that I didn't need anything. Then you come along and change all that. You hit me like a ton of bricks. I was so not ready- for someone new and to feel this way. Every time I see you, I fall for you all over again and you aren't helping... especially with that smile of yours. The attention you gave me the other night was flattering... the looks you gave the day after have had me smiling ever since. Everyone tells me that you are interested... at least a little. But I can't let myself get set up for years and years of guessing. Please don't put me through that. I can't take that. My heart can't take it. Please understand where I'm coming from. I can't explain it perfectly. One day I was living my life, just as I planned and then suddenly eveything is different. I can't stop thinking about you. When I see you, I replay it again over and over my mind- your smile, what you say, how you act, the way you give me so much more attention than I deserve. I will tell you this. You have a way of flattery about you. But I have just one question? Am I wrong? Can I let my guard down, even just a little? I need to know. I'm sure I'll miss you when you're gone... and then when I am. I hate this. I feel like time is running out and this all started just a few short days ago. How can so much change so drastically in 11 days? Tell me. Tell me where you see this. I talked to three of your roommates about different things and during all such conversations, I was thinking of you. Do you think of me?
I'm so scared that the way that I feel
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room
I wanna find a hiding place
We used to laugh, we used to hug,
The way that all friends do
But now a smile and a touch of your hand
Just makes me come unglued,
Such a contridiction,
Do I lie or tell the truth,
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you
It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated
I wanna hold you close
I wanna push you away
I wanna make you go
I wanna make you stay
Should I say it
Should I tell you how I feel
Oh I want you to know
But then again I don't
So complicated.
Oh, just when I think I'm under control
I think I've finally got a grip.
Another friend tells me that
My name is always on your lips.
They say I'm more then Just a friend,
They say I must be blind.
I admit that I've seen you watch
But from the corner of your eye
Oh it's so confusing
Yeah I wish you'd just confess..
But think of what I"d be losing
If your answer wasn't yes.
It's so complicated
I'm so frustrated
I wanna hold you close
I wanna push you away
I wanna make you go
I wanna make you stay
Should I say it
Should I tell you how I feel
Oh I want you to know
But then again I don't
So complicated.
I hate it, cuz I've waited
So long for someone like you.
Oh what do I do?