O_o december
well I thought I'd write, I keep saying I have to write in this thing more often so...here goes! Iv'e managed to draw somthings, which I guess is good? but they arn't as wonderful as I'd have hoped they'd be. -.- I'm in a slump I really must push myself to draw everyday I'm really out of practise but its frustrating when you pick up a pen to draw and only mess comes out O_x. Maybe my standards for myself are to high but I can't put up with the average work I put out..it has to be above that.
Half the time when i'm creating somthing good? I need to edit the hell out of it untill its deemed viewable XD And latley Iv'e been a lazy bum and have colored nada! Theres so many pics that could do with a nice clean color job~ But for now I just wanna draw O_x drawings good especialy when somthing nice comes out. So I'm just gunna keep trying, thats all I can do.
Welp its december and nearly christmas...again, but what can you do? last year i got really upset, I think I should just deal with the fact the year goes by quickly and no ammount of bitching and whining I do is going to change that, So go with it... lifes to short to freat like that. I say that now but trust me it wont be long till I freak out again XD.
hmm My sites going o.k and the other manga I was working on sorta died. I dunno I just have to find my motivation a little better, I'm fed up of not being able to stick to anything O_x. Driving lessons are a good example. And even though I'm attending college the inspiration and motivation for it is just oozing away like my sanity. I can't deal with the class as much as I thought I'd be able to -.- bleh I must be uselss~ I really wanna comit to somthing, ah well atleast I'm attending work regularly but I have a feeling my boss is going to fire me because I'm not picking things up so well. He keeps cutting back my hours and changing routas without telling me and its really starting to bug me.
I have an xmas dinner to goto on Saturday...huzzah, although my boyfreind is going there are alot of work people I don't get on with to well. And get this, we are going to an all you can eat chinese food buffet.. I don't even know If I LIKE chinese XD;
I should just get it over with, everyones going out for drinks afterwards but I dunno if its a good idea for pete to, him being diabetic and all... O_x I just get so worried~ XD I guess thats just my nature I'm probably being over protective.
Ah well off I go to draw, and...maybe try to get some art work done. Iv'e really gota pick up my attendance but I've been so ill latley its hard for me to get in, that and my motivation has slipped. -.- If I screw up this year my mum and dad will kill me... and then theres no going to america next year ither.. The saving up money isn't going to well, I just don't have enough hours -__- now that I work mum isn't helping me out so I'm trying to save and afford games for myself..it sounds like nothing but I only work once a week. Thats not enough for anything other then pocket money. Ah well I gota keep trying.
Half the time when i'm creating somthing good? I need to edit the hell out of it untill its deemed viewable XD And latley Iv'e been a lazy bum and have colored nada! Theres so many pics that could do with a nice clean color job~ But for now I just wanna draw O_x drawings good especialy when somthing nice comes out. So I'm just gunna keep trying, thats all I can do.
Welp its december and nearly christmas...again, but what can you do? last year i got really upset, I think I should just deal with the fact the year goes by quickly and no ammount of bitching and whining I do is going to change that, So go with it... lifes to short to freat like that. I say that now but trust me it wont be long till I freak out again XD.
hmm My sites going o.k and the other manga I was working on sorta died. I dunno I just have to find my motivation a little better, I'm fed up of not being able to stick to anything O_x. Driving lessons are a good example. And even though I'm attending college the inspiration and motivation for it is just oozing away like my sanity. I can't deal with the class as much as I thought I'd be able to -.- bleh I must be uselss~ I really wanna comit to somthing, ah well atleast I'm attending work regularly but I have a feeling my boss is going to fire me because I'm not picking things up so well. He keeps cutting back my hours and changing routas without telling me and its really starting to bug me.
I have an xmas dinner to goto on Saturday...huzzah, although my boyfreind is going there are alot of work people I don't get on with to well. And get this, we are going to an all you can eat chinese food buffet.. I don't even know If I LIKE chinese XD;
I should just get it over with, everyones going out for drinks afterwards but I dunno if its a good idea for pete to, him being diabetic and all... O_x I just get so worried~ XD I guess thats just my nature I'm probably being over protective.
Ah well off I go to draw, and...maybe try to get some art work done. Iv'e really gota pick up my attendance but I've been so ill latley its hard for me to get in, that and my motivation has slipped. -.- If I screw up this year my mum and dad will kill me... and then theres no going to america next year ither.. The saving up money isn't going to well, I just don't have enough hours -__- now that I work mum isn't helping me out so I'm trying to save and afford games for myself..it sounds like nothing but I only work once a week. Thats not enough for anything other then pocket money. Ah well I gota keep trying.